Dooda Posted October 6, 2009 Posted October 6, 2009 The situation with my family is so calamitous that I can't talk with any of them anymore. I have had enough of the abuse they give me every single day and I am showing them how I feel and they give nothing in return. I feel like total crap inside and I feel I can't express myself because they will just end up putting me down again. It's like they have the right to put me down. If I say anything, then I'm a sensitive suppy prince who takes everything too seriously. How am I supposed to act, or feel? How is this fair on me in any way? They have always been abusive, both physically and verbally, and I was never the sensitive type to take what they said too seriously, but after a while I just can't take it anymore and there's a time when someone reaches his limit. I'm constantly anxious, overly hard on myself, have no back bone, no confidence, no ability to assert myself in any situation, feel like total CRAP, and after all of this I'm sensitive. I can't explain any of this to them because they will just put it back on me and say it's all my fault for feeling like this. The worst part is I can't even talk to my brother because he will say the same thing, and I just feel like I can't relate to him anymore. My situation gets worse and worse by the day and I am more affirmed that my parents do hate me, and so in return I hate them and show no care for them. They hate me, yet everyday my father will still put the guilt trip on me, for any little thing that goes on around me. For example, last night I had stayed up till 2 in the morning and I couldn't sleep. I had class at 9. My father woke up and went to the washroom, and he said something of the sort: "OOOH ok, DON'T sleep, you don't need to go to class anyways." (I'm in Uni, btw). I said, "I don't care." And he kept on mumbling and making sounds. The next morning I got in the car, wasn't even late, and he said "You know, I couldn't sleep after you woke me up the night before." I was thinking, he must be joking. It's all the little things like this that keep coming. Now there are no more verbal insults (such as piece of dirt, son of a b****, I wish you were never born, etc) and definetly nothing physical, because he knows I won't take any of that crap anymore. But he still tries to get at me in his own little abusive way. The worst part is I feel like utter crap right now. I can't do anything with my life and I can't get myself together. I'm always absorbed in my anxious thoughts, and I'm becoming more and more stressed out by the day. I'm moving out from my parents house in about a week, and I'm wondering if I should just remove them from my life totally. I really don't feel there is any chance for our relationship to go anywhere but down the drain.
Ross PK Posted October 6, 2009 Posted October 6, 2009 I'm really sorry that it's like this for you, it sounds awful. I can relate because I've been around similar people. How do you feel about moving away and not having them in your life? It doesn't mean you have to completley cut them out of your life, but then maybe that wouldn't be such a bad idea.
xpaperxcutx Posted October 14, 2009 Posted October 14, 2009 I posted a little something about my family a while back and it does seems like we are in the same situation. However I think you should be relieved that you're at least moving out. What you need is a place that can take you away from all the negativity that your family gives you, at least it'll help with any anxiety and stress that might affect school. You shouldn't cut off complete contact with your family since blood is thicker than water. But it's reasonable to say that if you can't get along with them or logically come to solutions in regards to how they treat you, you can minimize contact with them. I wouldn't go as far as estrangement unless they did something horrific that you honestly cannot face them anymore.
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