ashleigh422 Posted October 2, 2009 Posted October 2, 2009 Please read this and help.. im feeling weak.. 4 year abusive relationship. I ended it 4 weeks ago. Cannot go NC because we have a child together. Last night he came over and gave me $2,000 to help with my bills(he hasn't paid a dollar for bills while living with me in over a year if not more) and told me he signed up for couseling. I don't believe that he has changed and I know my truth is my whole heart knows this split is the best (for me and the boys). Firstly.. I feel very weak right now. I went against the advice on here and went on date, to try to fill the void.. but OF COURSE.. it didn't work and the worst thing is that the guy is the epitemy of what I'm looking for.. just know I cannot do it right now (is there anything I can do to keep him on layaway??? LOL) SECONDLY...now I feel bad about taking the money. I told him I would take it, only becuase his son is here and not becuase there is anything due to him after this for helping.. only because he "owes it to me after everything he did to me." I told him not to give it to me unless he KNOWS there are no strings attached to it. HE very willingly gave it to me. My question is.. how do I cope with the feeling of loss? I feel a deep sorrow and loss for myself (and kids), over the relationship. Not over him so much. I feel sad and don't know quite how to fill that gap. What can I do to ease the pain? *Im posting this in Coping and Breakups becuase I don't knwo which one is more suiting? The comfort from coping or the breakup advice?
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