Kristy19 Posted October 2, 2009 Posted October 2, 2009 I was talking to a guy in the navy and everything was going fine until two weeks ago. When we finally talked about 3 days ago he said that a relationship isn't going to work for us because he's been an emotional wreck since losing his father and he's going to California in 3 months and basically doesn't think that's enough time to have something. Mind you he told me he loved me first. I don't know what to think or do but cry. I've been crying for the past three days. I really cared about this guy and we've talked about what would happen if he had to be shipped somewhere. We both could handle it. There was going to temptation but there's temptation everywhere. He said that he still loved me and will have feeling for me regardless, but it sucks. For once in long time I let my guard down and now I don't know if I want to bring it down ever again. I don't know the way I look at it as if you really loved or cared about someone so bad regardless whether or not you were going across the country you would find a way to make it work. He also said maybe in the future if we aren't seeing anyone we could have something, but right now we should just be good friends. I want to remain friends with him because I've told him things my family doesn't even know about but I don't know if I can and he's someone I can talk to. I'm just so torn, I can't even work on this dance I have to perform in a week because the song I'm dancing to is about losing someone you love and when I try it makes me think about him and I just cry. I don't know, I just need some positive words right now... Why does it hurt so much? I feel so alone . This was a guy I could talk to anything about. He still wants to be friends but I don't know if I can. All I can do is wonder "What if?" I truly cared about this guy and he cared about me but it hurts, really really bad.
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