Kristy19 Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 I was talking to a guy in the navy and everything was going fine until two weeks ago. When we finally talked about 3 days ago he said that a relationship isn't going to work for us because he's been an emotional wreck since losing his father and he's going to California in 3 months and basically doesn't think that's enough time to have something. Mind you he told me he loved me first. I don't know what to think or do but cry. I've been crying for the past three days. I really cared about this guy and we've talked about what would happen if he had to be shipped somewhere. We both could handle it. There was going to temptation but there's temptation everywhere. He said that he still loved me and will have feeling for me regardless, but it sucks. For once in long time I let my guard down and now I don't know if I want to bring it down ever again. I don't know the way I look at it as if you really loved or cared about someone so bad regardless whether or not you were going across the country you would find a way to make it work. He also said maybe in the future if we aren't seeing anyone we could have something, but right now we should just be good friends. I want to remain friends with him because I've told him things my family doesn't even know about but I don't know if I can and he's someone I can talk to. I'm just so torn, I can't even work on this dance I have to perform in a week because the song I'm dancing to is about losing someone you love and when I try it makes me think about him and I just cry. I don't know, I just need some positive words right now...
PinkToes Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 Kristy, I'm so sorry for what you're going through. If you can, I would really try to have no contact with him, at least for awhile. Whether you have a future together at some point in time or not, the best thing you can do for you is to try to stay strong and heal your heart. You can reconnect with him later, if you want to. But for now, try to stay away, and just be gentle with yourself. And try pouring your heart and soul into your dance, because I'll bet the raw emotion will help you give the best performance of your life. Tell yourself you can cry later, but while you are dancing, express your heartache with every movement. I'll bet you do great. And I'll bet that amazing dance will also help you heal.
Author Kristy19 Posted October 1, 2009 Author Posted October 1, 2009 I'm trying so hard not to cry while I'm dancing but its hard because I have to do this dance with one of my guy friends and every time we practice I just see his face. I don't want to but I do. I don't know it just sucks and I tired of going to bed at night crying just to wake up and work on this dance. I just never felt so low in my life. I'm generally a happy go lucky person but these past couple of days have been so hard and I feel that there are so many thing left unsaid between us.
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