smookie Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 I really do not want to talk to you ... I think I care but I dought it anymore... You have hurt me so many times in life and I can not forget the pain. To know that you would rather be with my best friend then me really kills me inside because you have known that for a long time but you never had the balls to tell me to my face. If you wanted her so bad why were you with me? Why did you want me to move in with you and continue to talk to her and tell her that you loved her, why did you invite her over to sleep in out bed? After everything that I have done for you and every caring thought I had of you how could you still love her and not me? I gave you alot and expected nothing at all only because thats true love to help your partener be content and happy, to help them with there worries , I bought you things when you had no money however you left me high and dry with $23.00 in the bank and you did not care how I would beable to surrive with a specail needs child. I know that I love you and I broke up with you because I never got the same kind of love back , you made it clear in my head that I have to keep you happy. almost 4 months after the break-up you are still treating me the same way.. well mr man I am done with this and your attiude about life.... The job you were really wanting guess what they are hiring and screw you if you think that I am going to let you know .. You treat me like a rag doll and glad at me only when it is a good time for you then you toss me back into the toy box with all your other toys. I want to see you move on in life but I have finaily seen that you did alot of good things because I was in your life and I helped you out with everything and anything that you needed ... This time I hope you are ready to do it on your own because I can not deal with you anymore... I stop calling you and you call me like 4 times a day.. what did you want ? you leave no message but your number shows. I am more then angry with you.. I want to just tell you off so bad that you can for once feel the pain of going through what I went through with you... You day will come and you will meet your match and when you do I hope that it is someone that I or my friends knows because then I can laugh at you as much as you laghed at me. My hurt ment nothing to youMy love was ok but nothing special.. Go out this weekend and meet your match ... I warn you of only one thing ... oct 16 I will be at that bar that you like again...I hope you are not there because this is a family thing and your no longer family. I know I broke up with you and it took alot of courage to do this and to make yourself feel better you said I had another man in waiting... HA HA HA no I so not and I find it funny that you can not see that it was you and your actions ... Like really ya I sold my ring that you gave me because you threw it across the room at me in a fedx box and said you better like this... there was no king of meanign behind the ring just you trying to show my best friend watch out I might be I think that I am getting kinda sotra maybe serious... Grow up and as much as I wish this would have worked oh hell no it never would of... Oh ya and my date well it turned out amazing as well we went out a few nights after that and that was even better.... lick it....
Chrome Barracuda Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 I really do not want to talk to you ... I think I care but I dought it anymore... You have hurt me so many times in life and I can not forget the pain. To know that you would rather be with my best friend then me really kills me inside because you have known that for a long time but you never had the balls to tell me to my face. If you wanted her so bad why were you with me? Why did you want me to move in with you and continue to talk to her and tell her that you loved her, why did you invite her over to sleep in out bed? After everything that I have done for you and every caring thought I had of you how could you still love her and not me? I gave you alot and expected nothing at all only because thats true love to help your partener be content and happy, to help them with there worries , I bought you things when you had no money however you left me high and dry with $23.00 in the bank and you did not care how I would beable to surrive with a specail needs child. I know that I love you and I broke up with you because I never got the same kind of love back , you made it clear in my head that I have to keep you happy. almost 4 months after the break-up you are still treating me the same way.. well mr man I am done with this and your attiude about life.... The job you were really wanting guess what they are hiring and screw you if you think that I am going to let you know .. You treat me like a rag doll and glad at me only when it is a good time for you then you toss me back into the toy box with all your other toys. I want to see you move on in life but I have finaily seen that you did alot of good things because I was in your life and I helped you out with everything and anything that you needed ... This time I hope you are ready to do it on your own because I can not deal with you anymore... I stop calling you and you call me like 4 times a day.. what did you want ? you leave no message but your number shows. I am more then angry with you.. I want to just tell you off so bad that you can for once feel the pain of going through what I went through with you... You day will come and you will meet your match and when you do I hope that it is someone that I or my friends knows because then I can laugh at you as much as you laghed at me. My hurt ment nothing to youMy love was ok but nothing special.. Go out this weekend and meet your match ... I warn you of only one thing ... oct 16 I will be at that bar that you like again...I hope you are not there because this is a family thing and your no longer family. I know I broke up with you and it took alot of courage to do this and to make yourself feel better you said I had another man in waiting... HA HA HA no I so not and I find it funny that you can not see that it was you and your actions ... Like really ya I sold my ring that you gave me because you threw it across the room at me in a fedx box and said you better like this... there was no king of meanign behind the ring just you trying to show my best friend watch out I might be I think that I am getting kinda sotra maybe serious... Grow up and as much as I wish this would have worked oh hell no it never would of... Oh ya and my date well it turned out amazing as well we went out a few nights after that and that was even better.... lick it.... *sigh, why are you bothering a man who left you for your best friend? they are both scumbags and idiots. but dont worry he'll leave for someone else. That sense of infatuation doesnt last forever, but i cold be wrong. But in any case you need to let it go.
smookie Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 This afair happened the first 6 months when we were together, I found out later because my friend told me I did nto believe her so there was a 3 way call... Oh ya so truw it was. He is scum and so is she. But you know after being together so long all I want him to do is miss me and try ... No I do not want him back, but to hear that he misses me would be nice. I put alot into this and thats the part that is bugging me ... he came in caring and walked away 7.5 years later the same ... Why is it so hard to understand little things like that for him? He did not leave I asked him to leave, there were alot of reasons behind this. - got pregant he flipped out and walked out for about 6 months - he does not know how to be with my kids, he thinks that they are older 18/20/15 that he can treat them anyway he wants because they are adults .. like uhm no way you can do that. -there is alot more reasons but I have to say that I use to go crazy with anger towards him I would throw things at him, I broke things, I cried for over half the time of the relationship. all I ever wanted was a sorry for hurting you so much ... I never got that he always just laughed at me or grin at me. This in turn made me so mad that I use to lose control of my temper... I am sorry for doing that however it seems that he never was and it seems to me that he never cared about me. That hurts alot... I moved away from my family and everything to stay with him... Let go by all means I am doing that ... Doing the total NC I so want to but then I am the one that endes up breaking it. if he calls all day then suddenly stops calling I start to think and trust me getting busy does not help me with this because I have 4 apartment buildings to manage and 65 units. I am overly busy. I think that I will post this last part in a new thread to get peoples advise.
adamt Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 Please do not send the letter. I didnt even read it which is exactly what you ex will do. If he does read it he will have a laugh about it and probably show all his friends what you wrote. It wil not change the situation apart from making you look sad. You are huting but sending some kind of letter to evfen the score wil not work. Best thing to do is do nothing and drive off into the sunset and dont look in your rear view mirror. Just cut all contact and go NC and dont respond to any contact. He is controlling your life, so take you him out of your life and take control yourself. You will look back in a few months and cringe for sending the letter. sit on it for a few months and then decide if you want to send it. He cheated on you and will do it again.
smookie Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 Oh it was never my intension to send this letter at all. I have alot of built up resentment and alot of pain. For the most part I am ok. I do not cry I do not go out of my way to get his attention. I just needed to vent this out. I have never been able t odo this due to his lack of responding. I have read a few of the threads here in the past few days and ersentment towards there ex parteners and it really made me think. Oh of course I am hang a real hard time with not contacting him and I can go maybe a day ok then the next day I call him or text him. I can still laugh when he says funny things and I can still confront him on issues however I do not do that. I want him to miss me and admit that he still cares about me because he is acting like whatever and that I was never anything to him (at times he does that) The most part of NC I am doing however it does not help me... Just needed to vent on someone tonight and I rather it be here then to him or other people that I know.
adamt Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 That is good news if you don't send it. It is time you disappear out of his life and stop all contact and put all your energy into how you are going to look after yourself and move on as soon as possible. Just remember than any contact is not goign to improve the situation
smookie Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 Thank you, Oh I so know that it will never change. It's too bad that he has to be that way but oh well thats his own thing not mine.
adamt Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 It is his loss. you deserve better. work on yourself, get back your confidence, be happy, have a smile on your face and start enjoying things in life you like. Then you will meet someone far better than your ex and you will wonder what all the fuss was about.
Chrome Barracuda Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 Your never gonna gain closure from him, it's best that you focus on yourself and rebuilding. Good things will happen to you, but not if you keep dwelling on what this idiot did. And has the friend contacted you, explained she was sorry, what happened , what happened on that end?
smookie Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 Yes she contacted me and we met at a friends place and talked it all out, This is how I confirmed it all was true. Her reasoning for doing this was (and no not good enough) We knew eachother since grade school, I moved away and did not keep in contact with her, when I came back 10 years later she was excited and we hung out everyday doing different things and catching up and on the weekends we would party. Well once I met him I was not around that much and we were not really talking anymore. She wanted us to break up so she could spend time with me... what kills me and I explained it to her, she has a b/f for over 7 years. Your all right I will never get closer nor will I ever forgive them for this. I am done feeling the way that I do and have been feeling for the past 7.5 years. I am a smart chick that can have a amazing life with or without a relationship. I am also very strong minded I have raised my kids on my own and one is special needs. I really just have to take a inventory of what I have done to myself in order to regain that nice person back ME!!! Thanks guys for being there...
Chrome Barracuda Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 Yes you can do it by yourself!!! and we are here to help you. From now on stay NC with her and him. She is a *ucktard who has no self control or loyalty to anyone. From what she said it sounds like she wanted to hurt you because you didnt give her much attention? wtf have I never heard of something more juvinile!!! Good lord I hope you exposed them both when people asked. 7 whole years down the drain, all for nothing. She might have to live with that guilt the entire time of her life. Is she still with him?
smookie Posted October 1, 2009 Posted October 1, 2009 No it started when I first met him .. ended 6 months later, I could just never get over it, It was like a knife was stabbing me in the back everytime I seen him or her. Today he's called twice and I have not answered the phone and I do not intend to answer it to him anymore. I have moved a few hours out of town also ...
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