Dooda Posted September 30, 2009 Posted September 30, 2009 I have anxiety and have been dealing with it for a while. It's getting really bad and I came across a site talking about AvPD and I think I have it. One thing it said was that while people with social anxiety tend to excessively monitor their own internal reactions, those with AvPD excessively monitor the reactions of those people they are interacting with. I'll think really weird and irrational thoughts about people. Like if I'm with someone and he/she leaves, I'll think, he/she doesn't enjoy my company. When I'm in public, I'm now constantly analyzing everything around me. I'll think that every girl that looks at me either, one, likes me, or two, finds me repelling... I always judge people. I'll be in a group or I'll be talking with someone and I'll be worried about what he thinks of me. If I'm talking with a girl, and she's twirling her hair or fidgeting with herself, I'll think she likes me, even though I know, for the most part, it's not true. It's really disgusting that I keep thinking such stupid thoughts. When I see random people in the street, I'll make a prejudgement about them, like "He thinks he's really cool," or, "He looks like an a**hole." I think I've started the prejudgements even more ever since I read about AvPD, perhaps because I'm thinking of it. The thing is, I'm so tired of having to deal with these feelings when I'm with people, but I know that if I lock myself away and avoid people it will make me even more anxious because I'll be left on my own to think of my anxious thoughts. I'm always thinking, never stopping. The thoughts just won't go away, no matter how hard I try. Is this normal with extreme anxiety. Is it normal to be so negative and judgemental of people, especially considering the fact that I'm scared of people's judgements? Or will I just be stuck like this forever, and I have AvPD or some other personality disorder......
New_Life08 Posted September 30, 2009 Posted September 30, 2009 This anxiety/depression is not going to go away until you see a therapist. Therapy may be all you need, or you may need both therapy and meds. Although most social disorders like this stem from a dysfunctional childhood, it could be a chemical imbalance that wont go away without medication.
Ross PK Posted September 30, 2009 Posted September 30, 2009 This anxiety/depression is not going to go away until you see a therapist. Therapy may be all you need, or you may need both therapy and meds. Although most social disorders like this stem from a dysfunctional childhood, it could be a chemical imbalance that wont go away without medication. I totally agree with you there.
Author Dooda Posted September 30, 2009 Author Posted September 30, 2009 Guys, I am not sick... I am just going through a really hard time and everything is getting worse. I just want to know if what I'm feeling and the irrational thoughts I'm thinking are all from anxiety, and if there is a chance for me to heal or will I simply be like this my whole life... Will therapy and meds truly rid me of this?
Meaplus3 Posted September 30, 2009 Posted September 30, 2009 This anxiety/depression is not going to go away until you see a therapist. Therapy may be all you need, or you may need both therapy and meds. I very much agree with what NL said here. And I will add, as a person who has been to H*** and back with anxeity, I can tell you the best step I took was talking with a therapist about my feelings. I'm one the road to recovery now and you can be there to. Mea:)
Trialbyfire Posted September 30, 2009 Posted September 30, 2009 Dooda, so that you're aware, in general, the symptoms listed for personality disorders, most people have them. It's the degree that this combination of traits negatively impacts on their lives, that makes it a disorder. Do yourself a favour and get a professional diagnosis. For all you know, it could easily not be a disorder or possibly a different disorder. While everyone has to careful about overprescription and bad therapists/doctors, the average therapist and doctor, is just that...average. Find yourself a therapist who you feel you can trust and click with, personality wise. Also, do your homework and make certain they have creds up their ying-yang and no black marks.
Author Dooda Posted September 30, 2009 Author Posted September 30, 2009 So you're saying I could just have some of the traits, but since it's not totally destroying my life, it isn't necessarily a disorder? I hope that's the case, because I'm not yet on that road. I will try my best to get a good psychiatrist but I'm just not sure where to start. How would I find one that I know is credible and has the right experience, and won't just rush me into the meds without understanding me first? I went to a psychiatrist about a year and a half ago, and he did nothing but give me a prescription for an anti-psychotic and an anti-depressant, both of which made me feel even worse. He did nothing, we didn't even talk, and after a while I just stopped the meds.
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