Heartbroken-idiot Posted September 29, 2009 Posted September 29, 2009 well even though we are friends and what not and calling her my ex still hurts so much, because even though shes 20 and im 22 i was her first boyfriend, i just have too many memories going around my brain of me and her. shes coming to pick her few last bits up today even though its been 3 months since weve split and i didnt realise it would be as hard as it is to get them together for her to take, i guess just having them around the place made me feel somewhat conforted, like she was coming back. god this hurts so much, i just want her back, i want the old times when we were happy together, because even now as friends we get along really well. all this time will heal everything i hate because time goes so slow it might as well be not healing anything. i just thought id write this because know one else i speak to really understands.
Author Heartbroken-idiot Posted September 29, 2009 Author Posted September 29, 2009 looking through the stuff that she made me,i cant stop crying why is there so much pain in what once was so much happiness the pain the anger rips me apart and all i can do is try and not lose my temper, because i dont want that, the fact she told me she didnt love me when now i know all along that she did, i look back at thwat she made me for my birthday in june and know she loved me then. i just want the pain to leave
Emilhon Posted September 30, 2009 Posted September 30, 2009 Hi Heartbroken, I know what you're going through I'm having the same problem although mine has not been as long a wait. I'm so not going to tell how that you have to move on and get over her. Feel bad, sulk, cry, get it all out! No one's words of "wisdom" about me letting go and moving on work for me! My ex has done this now for the second time and it was so out of the blue. I loved him like crazy, gave him everything and I don't think he put back what I gave out. Not to say we didn't have good times. I have the best memories since moving to a new city because of him. I'm so sad to see this end too. He was my best friend! I'm losing my boyfriend and my best friend in one shot! He actually got most of his things when he left although he forgot one thing which I will keep until he calls for it but he has something of mine that I need back and I'm teetering on whether I should wait longer to give him more time to miss me and realize how great we were together OR should I just contact him about it now and get it over with so I'm not still waiting for the day I have to contact him about it. I'm torn. It hurts so bad. I can't seem to get over him. You're not alone. All those people on here that are so cold and tell you NC move on move on... they obviously never loved anyone or have been single for years enough to get over the person they once lost! All their reasoning and their "it wasn't meant to be" crap doesn't do anything for a broken heart! Right now you need comfort and to feel compassion from people. I'm not trying to tell you she's coming back and false hope but you don't need to hear how every second about moving on and getting over it and get on with your life. You know this... it's the HOW that needs to be explained. I'm sorry you're sad. I hope it gets better for you. Try to get up everyday and hopefully it will get slightly better where you can make it through 1 day without crying, then 2.
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