Illuminati Posted September 29, 2009 Posted September 29, 2009 Hey everyone, I'm new to the forums. I joined out of desperation. I moved from where I grew up (Georgia). All the way to Hawaii 3 years ago. I met my ex-girlfriend (which is so strange to say) about 6 months after I got here. I don't know if I felt so strong about her so soon because I was lonely or if we really had a connection but It feels strong regardless. Well stuff really hit the fan about 5 months after we'd been dating. My family lost there home and I was homeless for a while. I had a job and everything but It was really hard to get around and she took care of me and visited me throughout the whole thing. She was really there for me and I really felt like it made her close to my heart. Not long after I wound up living on her parents property and things seemed to be going pretty good at first. I live with her family now, its been about a year now and she's started talking about how lonely she gets when I'm off at work and how she wants friends. The thing that kills me though is that all shes attracting as far as friends go are boys. And whats worse is that they either possible flings or used to date her. Clearly jealously has been a really strong emotion of mine epically since I am completely satisfied with things just involving us. I've got 3 really good friends that I wouldn't trade for the world. She and my friends are all I feel like I need in this life other than family which is also very important. I know in my heart that its not fair to expect her to be happy with just me in her life so I try to encourage her to go out and have fun regardless of how I feel like these boys are just time bombs waiting to explode into drama one way or another. She hasn't invited me to hang out with any of her friends because she feels like it would be aquard and that alone bugs the crap out of me. Well about a month ago she told me she wanted us to start dating and that she still wanted us to be close. It seemed like we were actually getting along better now that were dating than when we were in a relationship. I think I was relieved that although she had the ability to see other people she choose to still spend most of her free time with me. I kinda feel like I'm falling for her more now that were not in a relationship and I'm really afraid of being hurt. Shes trying to encourage me to date other girls and I'm just finding myself in a REALLY strange position because all I can think about is her. I can point out all the pretty girls in a room, no sweat. But I've got absolutely no interest in finding out who they are or trying to get a date. I'm a little worried that my clingy emotions could be turning her off and driving her away. I'd really like to salvage the relationship, I love her so much. But I also want her to be happy (even if it boils down to me not being in the picture anymore). Love is hard, any advice would be great. Do you guys think I can win her heart back? What do you think I should do?
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