Broseph Posted September 29, 2009 Posted September 29, 2009 Well its nearly been a month now that I have been broken up, althogh I guess you can say 5 weeks as the first ten days of our breakup we spent on holidays together as a couple knowing once we got back home it was over. It was sad but wasnt broken up. Now anyways I have my days but I am eating ok again, not waking up in the middle of night and generally moving on. I mean I do want her back but I know our relationship has lost some of its innocence. Well I guess the point of this post is to ask how to move on. I have had my highschool sweetheart 2 year on/off relationship. I had my college relationship of 4 years in my mid twenties, got engaged and got cheated on. Hurt real bad, I dealt with my time and emotins but mended quickly enoughand met another girl a year after who is my most recent ex. I am canadian but have moved out here to australia, we spent almost four years together and now she has gone. She wants to go out and live on her own for bit, she has just finished uni and all her friends are out travelling. Either way me and her are over and we barely speak atm which is ok for the mend i guess. My room right now has all her stuff in it and she will clean it out in a few weeks, we have decided to split the car (like week on week off stuff). Well thats me and my heart feels battered, I mean I am ok with being single but I like being in Love is so much better. I want to get back to that point but deep down I think I might have trust issues moving forward with loving someone. Two girls, two people who I was best friends with and two people I thought would always put me first ended up getting rid of me. Im scared maybe deep down in my soul, I will have this red light that makes me open up again. I am not planning on rushing into things, I know right now it would not be fair to myself, another girl and my my ex to get back out there but in three months? After Christmas? Can I love again? Im 31 but I still look young and feel young but Im just so scared that I will never open up. I am not sure how dead my old relationship is but I am not holding out for anything . I mean so far I have been ok NC and a few times I have really had to call her for other reasons. The last time she spoke she said the one day we sent a few texts back in fourth killed her , she said for awhile that day she couldnt stop checkin g her phone and it was geting to her. Regardless who really knows what that means and one thing I have heard from this site is talk is cheap. Also in hindsight I think I have realized that I am more mature than my gf, well i should be I am 7 years older. I am definetely not perfect but I have learned well from my parents. I always try to treat people the same way I want to be treated. Has anyone everybeen in a similar situation? I mean I was dead set ready to marry to girls and they both left, I think the second one was my mistake though, I mean we were best friends but at different points in life.. still hurst like hell though
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