sspiegel22 Posted September 28, 2009 Posted September 28, 2009 Hey everyone .. looking to just get some stuff of my shoulders .. maybe some advice and insight ,here is a little background first . Me and my girlfriend have been together for 3 years, about 4 months ago she decided that she need to experince a little more of life and the world and decided to go to england for 6 months.. live with family and work and travel , we talked it out and decided we would make it work , so we started the long distance relationship it was hard . but for the first couple months things where good , it really opened my eyes to my feelings for her and just how crazy i was about her.into the third month we started fighting lots ,the fights where about this guy she was hanging out with ..he tried to kiss her once,she told him no , but she stayed friends with him ... and this really bothered me . that she continued to hang out with him .she iniated a break cause of all the fighting , i was devasted ..it was only a week but it still really hurt me .it was just a no talking break . So after the break we started talking again ..we had a couple problems .. and i brought up just ending it . obvisoully i didnt want that , but the distance was killing me and i just didnt feel she wanted to be together anymore , she became very upset and i decided maybe this was the wrong decision .. so we didnt break up at that moment .. after all this things seemed really good we seemed like us again . about a week ago .. i found out she was staying another 8 months ..cause she hadnt really accomplished what she was hoping to accomplish .. i had to be the one to ask about this decision .. we had disscussed it and i told her i would wait .. but when i found out that she had actaully made the decision to stay longer ..and i wasnt the first to know, that i had to ask her about it to find out, i just kinda lost it .So i freaked and ended it .... I know dont know what to do ..i meant what i said about waiting i would wait for her... I probaly made a mistake ill regret forever .. but i cant take it back the damage is done . but is it fair that i should even have to wait ? Did i over react . it just really hurts me that she would actually make the choice to stay apart ..to me that obvisouly says something was wrong with us .. that she could make that decision .I just know if i had to choose between coming home to her or staying in another country, there wouldnt even be a choice to make .. it would be her..but i still cant help but feel .. i made a huge mistake . anyway thats my story ... i just feel sick .. i wish i would have kept my mouth shut .. but my emotion over ruled me and before i could think about what i was saying .. the damage had been done .. i know she doesnt want to break up ... but i am not sure how to make it better ..or if i even should ..soo torn up.
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