aloneinseattle Posted September 23, 2009 Posted September 23, 2009 Hi, everyone I am a long time reader but never have shared my story. So here it goes... I met this girl at work, we started flirting and going out and before I knew it I was in love with her. After about a month of dating she moved in with me. I got a nice apartment for the two of us, her and I. She did not work so I payed all the bills and the rent. She comes from a Mexican back ground so I wanted to be like the man who took care of everything(big mistake). So about after 4 months of the 6 month lease she, says she was not happy, and when I got home from work she already had all her things gone and was just waiting to say goodbye. It really crushed me. I really did not want her to leave. But I felt hopeless and I told her to get out. Later that night I felt so desperate to get her back, I called her many times wanted her back. So after 3 months of being broke up we got back together. I had moved in with my mother after she left me the first time. So I convinced her to move in with me at my mothers place, because, I was not going to get another place and have her leave me again. So about after a year or so which was last month. She calls me on my cell and said she found a room for rent, she was not happy and that she was leaving me again. I packed all her things and left them in front of my house and told her to come get her things. It has been about a month since she has been gone and the truth is I think about her all the time and miss her dearly, I just miss the sound of her voice and her presence. We have been NC since she left but I consistently want to get a hold of her or when my cell rings I always hope its her calling. Anyways thanks for letting me vent and all the replies are appreciated
Ronni_W Posted September 23, 2009 Posted September 23, 2009 Hi. I'm sorry you're going through this. You're doing the wisest thing by going NC. Have you considered blocking her number(s) so your mind/heart won't freak-out every time your cell rings? Break-ups do suck. Hugs.
Author aloneinseattle Posted September 23, 2009 Author Posted September 23, 2009 Thing is she does not have a number because the cell she was using, was the one I was paying for and took back. So in reality only way I could contact her would be through her work or family. I find my self looking at her picture everyday or listening to old voice mails she left me in the past.
Ronni_W Posted September 24, 2009 Posted September 24, 2009 I find my self looking at her picture everyday or listening to old voice mails she left me in the past. Er...I suggest you STOP doing that -- unless you enjoy inflicting pain upon your own psyche(?) Block her work number and all the family numbers that you have, then -- this is not so that you won't call her but so that you will know that, when your cell rings, it will NOT be her. As far as you contacting her, I agree with your first impulse to go and, more importantly, to STAY, NC.
Author aloneinseattle Posted September 24, 2009 Author Posted September 24, 2009 No I do not like inflicting pain upon myself, just that she is always on my mind and at times I find myself fighting the urge to call her, even deep down inside I know should not. Worst thing is I dream about her at night and when I wake up seems like it was real. I have been going out with other woman but all I can do is think about her. I find myself wondering if she misses or thinks about me the way I do her.
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