nicoLOVE Posted September 23, 2009 Posted September 23, 2009 so ive been with this guy for nearly 2 years, in a couple of weeks, itll be our anniversary. for this year, our relationship has been so rocky and rough that it feels like i cant take it anymore. but i do still love him. we fight soo much and thats the reason why were like the way we are right now. recently he told me that hes fallen out of love with me, at that point i thought i had too so i thought the feeling was mutual. the next day i woke up, i realised that it was a mistake so i asked for him back. he said it was gona take a miracle to get things back to the way it used to be but he agreed anyway. so ive biin trying and we both knew it was gonna be hard. our progress so far? well were good for 4 days, then sumthing comes up and we fight again. he doesnt say i love you anymore, but i still do because i realized that i still did. i feel like im putting myself out there but what is love without the risk? he tells me i can tell him anything, but wen i try it turns ugly and then we fight again. what does he mean? i hate bottling my emotions up inside. this morning, we broke up for 2 minutes *literally* then got back together. i asked him if he still wantd this and he said no. but then i asked him again and he said i cant believe im trying again. i dont get it. he said he doesnt want to be with me but there is sumthing still there, the two years we had is makiin him stay. im feeling very selfish because if i truely did love him, i would let him go. but i love him too much to let him go, i love him too much to make things work. but he doesnt want to be here with me. what does he mean? i dont want to force him to stay with me if he doesnt want to. when i said that he said, then let me go... what do i do? i am sick and tired of fighting, but i love him. i honestly do.
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