EYECANDY000 Posted September 20, 2009 Posted September 20, 2009 Well, I guess my bf and I are done. And I am so sad and hurt. And I would love some insight on the situation. I guess everything is always good in the beginning. We practically was with each other every day. It was almost like we stayed together. It seemed like we had the best relationship and it would only get better. But that is until a few days ago we had a disagreement. Which was our first fight. The next day we talked about it and resloved our differences. (The disagreement was just a personality clash).. But since that day I've felt like he has changed towards me. It seems like his entire demeanor has changed. I would ask him a question and his answers are non chalant. Every time I try to be sweet to him, its almost like a brush off. I tell him that I miss him, and I love him, and his response is always uh huh.. and laugh.Now, in his defense he has always joked liked that with me, but now its a joke and not a follow up response. There's no real real response. And I'm left with doubts. Now that was a few days ago. And since then I feel like I'm walking on egg shells when I'm talking to him. Now, remind you we have layed with each other every single night for months, up until a few days ago when we had the disagreement. Now last night I talked to him while at work, and when I got off I didn't hear from him the entire night. So, I figured he is still a little upset with me from a few days ago. So, today when he called me it was almost like I was begging to see him today. I went over there and we layed around for an hour or so. And then his phone rung. So I scurried over in a joking way to knock his phone off the bed so he wouldn't pick it up. I figured we were having a quality time moment and it was just one of his friends calling, who he would speak to eventually. (And it was) so he stated that he thinks I don't trust him anymore, and I said 'i do' and reassured him. A few minutes later he made the joke that he was creeping last night, and he has someone new . So we play fighted about it and laughed it off. Then he said it again, and I said ' that's not funny, so stop. Then I said something, and he rebutted with , in a joking way, I did creep last night...... and I slapped him!! Now, I'm not a violent person at all, but it was almost like a defense mechanism. I felt like if he keeps saying it then it oviously have to have some truth to it. He got extremly upset and told me to get out. I apologized and said that it hurts to hear weather its a joke or not, that he's cheating.. and he just respnded ' why are you still here? Now, I know I was in the wong for slapping him, but I felt like he was pushing a button! I feel so sad, its like I've lost my best friend. I haven't allowed myself to cry , because I know it will be non stop. All I want to do is call him or text him but I'm afraid he won't answer or respnd back. And that will hurt more. This is my first real relationship, and I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong. Encouraging words would be greatful..
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