A Letter to Her, NOT sent of coarse!!!

[trueforever]

Hi everyone, first of all let me say this forum is probably the one thing that has helped me the most since my breakup, and after almost a month of NC with my ex i truly feel i have accepted it for what it is. I want to thank everyone who has helped me and for those who directly havn't i thank you too becasue allthough our stories are similiar they are still very unique and there is no clear cut way to handle our situation so we must do what we think we need to do to get through it and by reading other it helps us cope So thanks Again.

 

Now for those who have not read my story, i do feel its more unique that others, my ex and i broke up with no resentment whatsoever, we were together for just over a year and i was pretty sure she was the one, obviously not any more lol but so be it, but to make a long story short we had an amazing relationship, truly, but she came to a crossroad and had to decide if we should still go on because she just wasn't sure if i was the one, and i know she had thought about it before she actually did it but she made the decision and i respected that desicion from her and i wished all the best because i had no reason not to she was awsome, and i can't even look back and find reason why i shouldn't want to be with her, except the simple fact that she doesn't want to be with me, and that is enough. But at the same time i didn't get to ever really say to her what out relationship meant to me since the moment i met her. Whether it is relevant to tell her now or not i don't know, probably not, but i'll let you be the judge, so I took the time to write everything I was thinking in this open letter to her. Once i wrote it, it definitly helped just to put everything i wanted to say to her in writing, so i would suggest it to others because it does help.

 

and let me know what you think, its kind of sappy so bare with it lol but i have a big heart and I only wish the best for people who only had their best intension for me so....enjoy!! lol

 

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[FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]Well Hello!!! This is probably the last thing you would ever expect from me and it is probably the last thing I thought I would ever do lol and it might be relevant it might be not, who knows…lol…you may not really care, I don’t know but you know me I wear my heart on my sleeve and I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t so bare with me.[/[/FONT][/sIZE]

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[sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman]Now before I begin I know your this tough girl who doesn’t try to show emotion but I know you better than you think, and you do have a soft spot and big heart, so don’t laugh o.k. lol and I’ve never judged you and you never judged me so don’t start now like when you tell people to stop crying on tv when they get emotional lol...jk….and it might sound like this is a desperate attempt to win your heart lol or a chance to express my undying love for you lol..haha…jk…but its not, believe me, because you know i accept everything that has happened. Now (name), I think back and can’t help but notice that both of us had a hard time opening up to each other, and I’m sure we have our own reasons for doing so, you have a past, I have a past and we never questioned that but sometimes that effects how we are today, whatever the reasons may be. I know you have your reasons for doing what you did and there just maybe more to the story than I know, maybe not, maybe your reason is clear cut , and that’s not a problem but I have my reasons for doing what I did, and this is more of my reflection on the last year of my life, and how this relationship went in my eyes and I owe it to myself to tell you, and as I write this I write it with a smile on my face OK…lol…but there are something’s that I need to say because life is to short and [/FONT][/sIZE]

[sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman]you never know if you’ll ever have a chance to say them again.[/FONT][/sIZE]

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[sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman]You remember that night when we spent our first night together, Tara’s house, ooh yaa you remember!!!lol, we splept together for the first time, well actually you thought I just wanted sex and that I probably wouldn’t pursue you like I did after, well were you ever wrong lol, and this might sound ridiculous lol but it did happen, but while laying there, before we both fell asleep in each others arms, I felt this feeling inside me. We were lying there and I remember looking at you while you slept and I couldn’t help but feel that that there is something about this girl, and as I lied there I could feel your heart beat, your breathing and they were insinque with mine and that’s when it hit me, at that particular moment I knew, I just knew that you were someone special. I know I know pretty sappy, lol but its true…anyways…haha ..As I got to know you, that feeling only grew. We took it slow and we felt each other out for a little bit and I was kind of excited not gonna lie about what the possibilities might be heading our way, and I thought things were looking up . Then our first test happened and I know we kind of took a step back during that time when you were doubting our relationship but you decided to give it another go and I can honestly say I thank you for that. I say this because, first of all you scared the **** out of me, lol but in all honesty, before I met you I met/dated many girls, and really for the first time in a very long time I knew you were somebody worth fighting for. Then it all started to come together, we really took the time to get to know each other, and the more I learned the more I loved. It wasn’t just the presence of the most beautiful women in front of me that did it but the presence of one of the most beautiful hearts that I’ve ever met. I thought I had a big heart and I finally felt that I had some competition, lol. So as time went on I think we grew but we also grew comfortable with each other and everything just seemed so easy, maybe to easy and I think it was, and that’s why I really started to feel strongly for you. But I wanted more, you were contagious, I wanted to learn more, I wanted to grow with you, I wanted to learn everything about you, to be there for you, and I wanted you to be the first person you thought of when you woke up and the last before you went to bed because that’s what you did to me. You became my best friend and I believe I was yours, I trusted you and you trusted me and that’s all anyone can ask for, and yes that’s what I was looking for in a women, that exact thing, and honestly thought I had it, but sometimes we all take things for granted and we just see what we want to see, but what I think I failed to realize is that maybe sometimes that just isn’t enough, obviously in hindsight lol but that’s OK …. Yes I have very strong feelings for you I can’t deny that, did I think you were the one? Truthfully, maybe, but I really didn’t know, all I know is that it felt right. My nature is that, everything that happens to me is for a reason and if it feels right and you are truly happy than you owe it to yourself to go for it with an open mind and heart, so that’s what I did and I know that’s what you did and that’s why I have no resentment towards you or myself for that matter, none whatsoever. [/FONT][/sIZE]

[sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman] I said it to you before and I’ll say it again, you were the best part of everyday!!! . Your laugh, your smile, your sense of humor, your kisses, your hugs, your friendship, your ability to make me just enjoy life, your trust, the passion you showed me, you just did it for me, we enjoyed a lot of great times together, me kickn your as in golf lol,…I loved how we had to compete at everything we did ...lol…, wings games, concerts, and how could I forget gambling at the casino, you were my lucky charm!!!….lol and many many more, but most importantly and the ones I cherish the most are just lying in bed together, watching movies, whatever it was, just being in your presence itself. I truly felt my life was fulfilled and I was completely happy and I don’t say this with any regret whatsoever. You made me a better person and I appreciate that, you taught me that there are women in this world that our worth giving our all to no matter what the out come. You are a wonderful, sincere person who only has the best intentions for yourself and for others and that’s something that is admirable and I do, so when someone makes that much of and impression on your life you have the right to let them know. Now the only advice I can give to you from all of this, is don’t be afraid to ever let someone get to know who you are like I did. Like me somebody will appreciate you for who you are because of what you are. You deserve to be the with the one that makes you as truly happy as you can be and that will happen, I promise, just hold on because they are usually few and far between and when you find him don’t hold back and you won’t regret it. That’s what I did and I sure as hell don’t regret it and I say this because this was the best year of my life and I mean that, I wouldn’t trade it for the world, you were worth fighting for. The pain that came with all of this is just a small price to pay to feel as happy as I did. I can sit hear and try to think of all the negatives in our relationship and of you, but I can’t because for the most part there isn’t any in my mind, well maybe a couple, lol, and that reason and that reason alone is enough for me to keep moving on. If you really care for somebody let them go, that’s all we can do. Right now you have my heart and I am ok with that, I don’t know when, I don’t know where, but one day I will take it back because I know I will love again one day because you showed me that it’s possible.[/FONT][/sIZE]

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[sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman][FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]With all my heart!![/sIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]All the best to you!!![/sIZE][/FONT]

 

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[Broseph]

That is really nice man and very heart felt... so are you sending it?

[NopeNah]

. so are you sending it?

I hope not! It's a GREAT letter! Now that you've put it out of your heart/mind...burn it!

[trueforever]

Trust Me Broseph!! i do want to send it, but i don't know. I know most people on here would say, Burn It, like praying4daylight because they think its irrelevent, and they might be right, but they might be wrong i guess i have to fallow my heart!