Always end up hurting?

[Heartbroken-idiot]

this is really long but im trying to condense 1 1/2 months, sorry

 

ok i havnt been on here for about a month and a half, i stopped coming on because my ex contacted me and we got talking again via email and i thought everyone goes on about no contact and i was going against it thinking i dunno, maybe no contact wasnt the way to go.

 

well neway, she contacted me after her birthday 20th July after having 3 weeks of NC, she was nice and we got talking via email everyday upuntill this last week, i mean there wasnt any arguments and we didnt talk to much about the relationship just about day to day things and stuff.

 

she has told me loads of times in email and msn that she misses me such a lot and loads of other little things like wanting to cuddle and meet when she gets back to uni and tbh everything i thought was going great, she was very positive, she even said she would wait forever for me.

 

well i never had her phone number during this time untill about then end of august when she wrote it on facebook to someone and i thought id write it down but didnt want to use it because she hadnt given me it.

 

so anyway two weeks ago i got assulted and ended up in hospital and i emailed her the next day to tell her and what not, and she rang me straight the way really worried, we got talking and even though we hadnt spoken in 2 months on the phone it felt right, we talked for a while untill she had to go to work, she then rang back after work and talked untill her phone battery went dead, she was really lovely, saying if she was here she would have come and cooked for me and stuff, and flirted a little. i told her i had her phone number from facebook and she was a little taken back but said ok, and she told me she had been used my facebook to look at my profile because we werent friends on it anymore.

 

all was really good as far as i though, she text me saying she hoped i felt better and she said she thought i was holding back on the phone so i said yes i was a little because i was scared of losing contact with her and she said not to be.

 

well the next couple of days she text me and i did her, just asking if i was ok and my head was ok now (from the assult) she then flirted a little more about me doing something sexual to her, well i was over the moon because i still love and want her more than anything.

 

for the last week i have been confused as hell and even more so now, she went quite quiet on me, didnt txt back, didnt email, i asked her what was wrong and she had said she feels really depressed, she has a lot of problems with family atm, people being ill and what not, also the time of the month doesnt help. so i said ok im here for you, i may have pestered a bit to which im sorry and have told her, only because i was confused as to why she didnt answer.

 

well she rang me 3 days ago and we got talking it was nice, she told me she missed me still, and was generally chatting, and i rang her 2 days ago and she was the same.

then yesterday i tried to call her she didnt answer so i gave it 5 mins and called again thinking she might not have heard it, i then get a call from her mother saying to stop calling because everytime i did it upset emily and upset her, she was quite horrible to me and i said if it upsets her so much then why has been emailing me everyday for 2 months, why did she ring me the other day, her mum couldnt answer.

 

i have no idea what is happening, i havnt heard from emily, i emailed her asking whats going on, she hasnt answered.

 

does anyone have a clue whats going on because shes back to uni in 4 days?! please help

[Heartbroken-idiot]

anyone any insight?

[ShannonTurner]

I am not sure of the whole story, why did you guys break up? I am thinking it might upset Emily because she still has strong feelings for you, hence all the e-mailing back and forth. However, I think as much as she likes you, she might also be thinking that if she gets in too deep, she could end up in the same position she did before, where you guys end up breaking up. Deep down, I think she believes the relationship will fail again and she'll go through all that grief again.