smookie Posted September 16, 2009 Posted September 16, 2009 So ya I broke my own NC by texting him. End result I am in tears as I was telling him how good I was doing (his questions) he called me a failure because I did not pass my learners licence... I have a big fear of driving and I was scared to even try but I did only because I moved far from my family. He made me feel worthless like he always has in the past (reason for breakup) Here I have on one hand the full office wanting to throw me a party due to my excelled proformence and I have one person calling me down... What won the called down remarks, The hurt, The anger. Not the excitment not the party that is being planned or the nice big screen T.V I got. Why does this happen to people ? why does this have to effect me so bad? Why should I even care? I tired everything with this A$$ and nothing works out.... How stupied...... Thanking all who read this I really need to vent this.. I have a meeting in 10 minutes and I am finding this hard to get myself together for it ... I wish my boss was here as he is amazing and a nice guy not afraid to tell me the truth straight up ... Ok so that made me smile.... now laughing ....
angelface78 Posted September 16, 2009 Posted September 16, 2009 thats why youre not supposed to break NC...nothing good can come of it. I want to break it every damn day...but im afraid of ending up much worse. My ex is an ass**** like yours....mean cruel people. Leave that jerk alone. If you say youve tried everything...understand that the only thing left is to leave him alone!! Its hard to walk away from someone you still love..but love yourself first. Hope you feel better!
Exit Posted September 17, 2009 Posted September 17, 2009 Who the hell would ever call another person a failure, especially someone you once cared about? He doesn't sound worth the trouble.
smookie Posted September 17, 2009 Posted September 17, 2009 I know. I was so upset about that, but I try to see the lesson in this,,, there was a big lesson in it ... This is how he always made me feel since the day I met him, Having the affair with my ex best friend to lying about everything, getting mad at me because I make my own decissions in life for myself. I have seen that the minute I hung up on his A$$. It completly made me feel the same way as the last 7 years of my life. He is not worth it at all. He is so mad that I cn make it on my own that he has to nit pick and try to bring me down for anything that he could think of... Thanks guys this venting really does help me alot!
GrayClouds Posted September 17, 2009 Posted September 17, 2009 Einstein didn't pass his college exams was he a failure? This guy is such a suck a loser he has to make you feel bad for him to feel good. You sould feel nothing but pity for him. Go NC, heal and then go find someone that deserves your love.
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