my hopeless love story.. :(

[dark-angel]

YOU R SOOO IN LOOOVE !!! thats what my heart says all the time, and the guy doesn't even care or thats wt i see.. It starts 3 years ago when i left my home town to continu high school in his city.First time i saw him i didnt realy like him we were like Tom & Jery hh lol, anyway but he used to look at me or tells me on msn who is that guy u were with him and stuff like that. that summer we were talkin as usual on msn (when i say we talk that means like fightin and cursin each other and we used to like that hh) and i said hello jurk wt u doin? and he didnt answer after like 15 minuts he wrote to me "je taime" that means i love u in french.so i was confused and i deleted him from my list. the second year i start to like him and then love him but the problem that we ve never spoken to each other again, he was just lookin at me or talkin whith his bests about me , one of them told that my guy is in love with me, andi felt it too cuz when u fall in love u can feel wt ur beloved one feels about u. so in the end of that year i did stand in front of him and before i say anytin he held my hands and i was like OHH my goooosh!and i took back my hands and then i told him that i love him, and when he looked at me in the eyes i felt somthin realy special, but he didnt aswer me, and just like that i asked him to go out with me so he accepted.We had our first date , we talked for 3 hours i stll remember it was the 13/06/2008 yeah, and it was like the first and the last time i see him cuz i went back to my home town. after that we started talkin on msn again but this time he was soo angry like he hates me or somthin but he wont say why or r we stilla couple pff i was just soo confused :s ! after a month i told him that they accepted me in the school of my dreams he said good for u! and after 2 days he told that the thing that we started is over!! i didnt know wt to do i just felt like i lost my heart that night and i couldnt stop lovin him till today! and when i talked to him again he said wt the hell do u want ? and i just said i just wanna talk with thats makes me feel better even if u hate me.. and then he deleted me from his list, so i changed my pseudo and start talkin to him as an other girl , just he how r u and things like that cuz all i wanted is to talk with him and to know that he s okay. 2 days ago i felt like this it ill tell him its me !! but when i told him that i was too angry so i was like:"ooh tje jurk is here hahaha well here i am askin u to delete me again cuz i my msn doesnt delet come on hurry up im waitin and i have a looot to do" when he answers me he wrote some dirty words and he breaks my heart again so i started to cry all over..i just love him i cant breath without thinkin of him, i look at his pics all the day

i really need to understand , i want to know that he did love me once cuz when i asked him about that" je taime" that he wrote he said no i didnt tell you anythin (T_T)

plzzzzz if anybody can help me he will save my heart and my soul and ill be thankfull for good.. bye