DustySaltus Posted September 15, 2009 Posted September 15, 2009 I've had one of the worst weeks of my life. On Monday, my ex and I had what I thought was a last serious conversation talking about our relationship and what happened. I asked her why she wanted to snoop around on me after I moved to her country and asked her to marry me, no answer. I told her she could've asked me anything and we could've gotten past this instead of overreacting with her BPD (Borderline Personality..) and kicking me out of the house. It was all my fault she said. I told her she was a quitter and I sacrificed so much for her. Made the most emotional speech I've ever made in my life, she said some nasty things....I hung up. Tuesday, she leaves me a message on my work phone telling me she needs my address to send all of my leftover stuff and the ring. SHE HAS MY ADDRESS, WHY IS SHE CALLING? I've dated a few women since I came back because my ex told me to move on. This is how things have gone so far: Met a girl who is really, really into me and I like her too but I don't know how physically attracted I am to her. She's good looking but there's just something about her that I see as more of a friend. But i'm trying to give things more time to play out. Just my luck a girl is very into me and I just can't seem to get there. I've been stood up with two girls that I really liked. Girl #1 was supposed to meet me at central park and never showed up or called or emailed or anything. That's a nice ego boost. Girl #2 texted me the day we were supposed to go out and told me she felt weird going out with me because her friend really liked me. I told her I didn't like her friend, I liked her. She said the feeling was mutual but she didn't want any drama...how considerate for me. Then the ex tells me that if I am willing to give up everything her in the states and move to her country, she would take me back. Thanks, but I thought we were finished? I thought you wanted to have nothing to do with me, but you always come back around don't you? Met another girl where all we had was text conversations and maybe one or two actual phone conversations. I get tired of it and call her and guess what? Suddenly the girl who had a million things to say via text, has nothing to say at all! Well, execpt for the fact that she likes to go out and get drunk every night while her 3 year old (wait, come again?) stays with the babysitter. Found out that the job I wanted to take this month has been postponed ONE YEAR due to budget constraints. My current job is in serious trouble. Now, the ex has dropped completely off the face of the earth. I've done the NC shuffle with her on and off for a few weeks. My confidence is very low. I think stupid things, like maybe my nose is too big (I don't have a big nose at all, why am i thinking this?). I'm just an average looking guy and I will be average in every single way. I blew it, I had the most beautiful girl in the world but I abandoned her...even though she told me to leave and she's not beautiful inside AT ALL. You work so hard to build something in this life and then it all gets taken away from you. Life is just a painful game, I'm in a lot of pain. Damn, what happened to the old me?
Author DustySaltus Posted September 15, 2009 Author Posted September 15, 2009 Yeah, you are pretty pathetic right now
BeSteady Posted September 15, 2009 Posted September 15, 2009 Slow down get past the break-up. Realize any relationship you start in this postion will likely turn out bad. Your focus is on your X and trying to find a replacement. Spend some time to find out about yourself. If any of these women are right they wil be there when your healthy. Don't be hard on yourself though just keep the focus on yourself.
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