jaybird1043 Posted September 13, 2009 Posted September 13, 2009 I'm a guy and I swear I have never felt heart ache like this! Its been almost 2 month since she and I split up and I spend ridiculous amounts of time thinking about her. I had no where else to turn to so here I am. I have done everything that I have read and what everyone has told me and I'm still wrecked. I think about what she is doing, if she is with someone, what would be doing, does she miss me...I'm driving myself nuts and I do not know how to start. I put all pics away of her, erased her number, her email address...you name I did and I'm still sick to my stomach. I cannot enjoy life at all, I'm just wasting time thinking about her and all the what if's. I accidently saw a pic of her the other day and almost broke down in tears. I'm here writing this because I have the uncontrollable urge to call her or look her up in facebook or something. I'm so not this person, but here I am being it...The topper to all this is that she was an awful gf, she was just drop dead gorgeous that was her only good quality. Someone please talk me out of this rut before I loose my mind!!!
caramel c Posted September 13, 2009 Posted September 13, 2009 Hi, listen, you can vent as much as you want here. We are all in this together. What happened with her? If you don't mind explaining...
Author jaybird1043 Posted September 13, 2009 Author Posted September 13, 2009 Like it has been said so many times before, she needed to work on herself. She has a mom who does everything for her, she does not even have a job and she just wanted to marry someone who treats her the same way her mom does. it kinda freaks me out now that I am saying it out loud, but she really wanted a "father figure" I guess. I knew way at the begining of the relationship things were a bit off, but I got my emotions and me heart caught up and a year later here I am! She was truly a terrible girlfriend and I do not mean sound mean, I was told this by everyone but I'm just so heart broken, I do not get it!!! Just the thought of her with someone else is sickening... I know better than be like this, I was married before and never this heart broke. Ugh.
caramel c Posted September 13, 2009 Posted September 13, 2009 Jay I'm so sorry you are going through this right now! You aren't alone, man. I am at 2 1/2 months since the breakup myself. We each have our own story, but the bottom line is that we are hurting. I wish I could say something to make this all go away. I can't do that. All I can do is wish that the time will go by and we will get better and stronger and happier than we are now. It sucks to think that our relationships failed. It sucks to think of them with somebody else. Believe me, I feel sometimes that my heart was torched and burned and now is a piece of useless old charcoal that will crumble and dissipate at any moment. I'm torn, I'm crushed, I'm a lot of things... Lets just try to get through this time. WE HAVE TO. We have lives to live, and nobody is going to live our lives for us. There is no choice. There are ways to cope and I would be happy to share some of mine with you but they won't take all of these feelings away, they will only help you get by in the meantime.
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