sandy12345678993 Posted September 11, 2009 Posted September 11, 2009 A year ago today about this time he was asking me out on our first date. I remember everything about that. I remember everything about our time together in vivid detail, like it all happened yesterday. I can still see him in front of me, and feel him next to me. But he's gone, and he's been gone. I haven't even seen him in 9 months, and his sad excuse for a breakup happened 5 months ago. He's never said a word to me since. And still I love him and think about him everyday. I wonder if he ever missed me, or felt bad about how he handled things, or wanted to call me, or tell me he was sorry, or thought he made a mistake. I wonder if he's remembering me now, if he even thinks about what happened a year ago. I don't even know what he's doing, or where he's at, or who he's with. They say it's better this way, but it still doesn't feel better. He's just gone, and I'm supposed to get over it. I was. And I am. I'm working on myself and trying to heal. I started going back to school after 5 years so I can take better care of my son. I was doing well in my healing process and not thinking about him as much. I wasn't crying anymore. I started to feel at peace with it all. I know this is just a setback and me feeling sorry for myself. I knew when September came that this was probably going to happen. All those feelings would rush back. I know I'm not over him, but I will be. I don't want to forget, but I don't want to feel like this either. I don't want to be one of those people a year or more later, still sitting there sad and heartbroken over an ex. As much as I want him to call me and come back, I know he's not going to. It's gonna be a hard week, maybe a month or so, but I'll feel better again. I'm striving for indifference.
Sunset Posted September 13, 2009 Posted September 13, 2009 Hard to give advice as you haven't really specified reasons for the split. So I will assume he is a poor loser excuse for a man and you are prob much better off without him You dig deep hon because you've got a son there who wants a smiley mum and just think while your smiling you could well meet that gorg man thats going to make you realise you were nuts for moping after your ex for so long. Things happen for a reason, even if the reason is not obvious at the time x
Exit Posted September 13, 2009 Posted September 13, 2009 It's completely normal that there are certain days on the calendar that are going to bring back memories. I know no matter how good I may feel right now, there are days looming in the future that will surely remind me of her. Birthdays, holidays, anniversaries, first dates, etc. There isn't much you can do except try not to dwell on it too much. Set aside a small portion of time to think about the memories and allow yourself to feel whatever emotions they bring, but don't spend too much time on it.
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