brwniyedgrl Posted September 11, 2009 Posted September 11, 2009 So i am new to this site. My friends can never give me advice, I just get the simple i'm so sorry, but I don't know what to tell you. So hopefully this site can help. Some dating background on myself. My first LTR was in high school it was 2 years, but was no offically over for 3 yrs. My ex messed me up so emotionally, and mentally that I had panic attacks, would cry franticaly, and finally just had to see a therapist. Well, meeting new friends and getting out was the way I got a piece of myself back...i never recieved my whole self back. My ex lead me on to think we would get back together but had two counter parts..he was 3 timing. So which leads me to my current relationship my b/f is 2 years younger than I am. I am currently 22. We've been together for 7 months..and we are a LDR. He goes to a school in louisana and I am here in our home town. In the beginning we started off/ are still a LDR we met at work. I felt during the beginning stage of the relationship that he truly liked/loved me. He showed me off to his parents, and he called all the time..and I felt very attentive to. Then the summer came and he came home. He has a lot of close girlfriends, and they are really nice I have no problem with them..but I'm not used to seeing my b/f giving attn to other girls, but I can't say anything b/c they've known him for like 5 years. The summer was really hard us b/c I think we were finally see how the other person is on a daily basis. He also got diagnosed with testicular cancer in may at the beginning and hes fine now did everything he needed to do, the cancer will cause him to have to stay here this semester and then we will be back to a LDR in dec. However, heres the problem, I don't feel special anymore..and I know that the beginning of a relationship everything seems like tulips and daisies. But we see each other mostly on the weekends, where i am used to seeing a b/f everyday. He says we have a relationship where each person has a life when i complain and mention how my friends see their bfs everyday. I feel like I have to watch everything I say to not make him mad. Its not like he completely ignores me he calls me when he goes to work, and gets off work. We hardly fight...this month maybe like 3 or 4 times. His close girl friends say hes not really affectionate and that they think he really likes me..but what can't I feel that. Hes going to his school for the weekend and said we most like won't be able to talk cause he has to talk to the school, getting his apt set up, and will pretty much be busy. Has my past relationship just messed me up for life I get parinoid of cheating when there are no signs of cheating, I can't trust but I have no reason to not trust him. Ugh sorry this has been a confusing post but maybe yall can help me pick up the pieces.
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