Is there hope of a second chance?

[tenderkisses]

My boyfriend broke up with me on Sept. 1. We started dating in early February, so we were together for seven months. We work for the same company. I've worked there about two years and he's worked there slightly longer. He's in a management position, though not in my department.

 

When we started dating, we were both going through some family problems. His father died the previous October, and he was and is dealing with the loss. I grew up in a single parent household, and in Ocotober my mom and I had a rift that separated us to the point that we essentially quit speaking for months.

 

On our first date we had an instant chemistry. I was ecstatic after our first dinner together and he's told me that he was, too. Things were great for a long time, but I was still having problems with my mom and he and his siblings were in the process of selling his dad's house. In July, I started having problems with my manager at work. My manager put a lot of pressure on me and I started having a lot of stress and difficulties at work. When I started having problems at work, I started complaining a lot to my boyfriend. He told me that he felt caught in the middle because he's in a management position, but he knew he couldn't say anything because he has to work with my manager. I asked him if he didn't want me to talk about work, but he said he wanted to hear what was going on. So, I continued talking to him. I tried approaching upper management about my work problems but the situation seemed to get worse, and I became emotionally out of control. I was constantly stressed and I let my emotions get the best of me. I took a lot of that out on my boyfriend.

 

A couple of weeks ago he went to sell his dad's house. He had to get rid of or move all of his dad's belongings from the house. We talked while he was away, and he told me that he missed me. The day that he came home, we went to dinner and talked. I could tell he was being distant but I knew he'd been through one of the most difficult situations of his life, and I knew he still needed time. He told me he'd missed me and I know it sounds cheesy, but when we kissed that night I could feel that he loved me. The following day, I had the worst day I've ever had at work and I had a complete breakdown with my boyfriend that night. He was so supportive throughout the night and talked me through how to handle the situation. After we talked, I realized that I had to get control of the situation. So the next day, I talked to upper management again and myself, my manager and other company officials had a meeting where we aired out all problems. Simultaneously this month, my mom and I started repairing our relationship.

 

My boyfriend however became distant for a few days and we didn't talk much. We went to dinner on Sept. 1 and we had a great dinner. I told him that I felt like I'd fixed things at work with my boss. I told him that I felt like I'd lost sight of myself and my emotions during the preceding weeks but that I felt like I was in a better position now. In the car on the way home from dinner, I asked him why he'd been distant in the preceding weekend. He said, "I'm just not sure this is exactly what I want any more." When we got home, we sat down to talk but it came as such a shock that I was still trying to process everything. At the time, we didn't talk much. He said that he felt like we'd been losing the spark because of all the problems we'd each been going through. I told him that I felt like the breakup was a mistake and that we were both on the other side of our problems. His dad's house is sold and he's finally starting to have some closure and time to heal. I know it's going to be a long process, but it's started. My problems at work are over and I truly feel like if they start again, I'm in a better place to handle them. My boyfriend said that he knew that problems affect people, but he wasn't sure how much.

 

I feel like I bred a lot of negativity during the last month or so of our relationship when things at work were at the peak. I know that I wasn't a pleasant person to be around. It kills me that I told him that night before the breakup that I felt like my problems were over and like I was my old self again. I'm normally a very positive person and I truly lost control of my emotions but I've regained that.

 

The day after the breakup, I e-mailed him to ask if we could talk. He said he'd think about it. We haven't talked outside of work since. I'm not begging him to take me back. I just want to talk. I feel like he's my "one" but I don't know how to handle this situation. In my past relationships, I usually give the guy some space and after several weeks he inevitably calls. With this case it's entirely different. I have to see him every day at work. We have to work together. We have to talk for work. Today, we got caught in the elevator together and we chatted briefly about non-work things.

 

Is there any hope in this situation? I want a second chance to do things right.