SarahT111 Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 Hey everyone Im feeling a bit sad tonight and your always such an amazing bunch that cheer me up! You may remember me from about 2ish years ago when my first love dumped me. I was so young then (about 17 when we got together, almost 20 when we broke up) Now im 22 and my love life has been an absolute disaster since we split. Tonight ive just been hurt by a guy I had a big crush on and it has made me really look back and think about things. Every guy I have been with or even had feelings for since the split has either rejected me, mucked me around or just treated me like dirt. Eventually every guy ive had feelings for or dated in the past two years has left me and left me broken hearted. Tonight I look back and realise I once had what I wanted all along but I was to young and dumb to realise it. My first bf was perfect. He loved me, treated me like and angel and was just all round everything I wanted from a relationship. This being my first relationship I thought all males were like this. I got kind of bored of my first love and thought it would be so easy to get someone just the same. Deep down I kind of wanted to get out there and date others. I never told him but it must have showed. I became distant with him but he tried and tried to save our love. I would keep fighting with him and say stupid things. Eventually he gave up and left me. Today I feel I left him no choice but to leave me Tonight this realisation has made me so sad. I had everything I wanted once but I was to young and stupid to realise what I had The two years while we have been apart has been almost misrable for me and I find myself constantly chasing what I once had with no luck I feel like this is it for me. I have had what I wanted and was SO lucky to find that but I ruined it and now im unable to find any happiness again. I guess unhappiness is what I deserve. Im sorry for such a negative post, its been a sad night, and a sad two years overall. I feel alone, misrable and like a complete loser. Does anyone else ever get these feelings? And where do i go from here?
Darren09 Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 I know how your feeling, i am also 22 but am a guy and i feel like i lost the girl i wanted to be with forever. all other girls i meet dont seem to be the same thing at all and am stuck in this world of feeling like am not worth anything to anybody...... i just wanted you to know that your not alone and that am going thru what you are.
soheartbroken Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 I also feel like I screwed up with the best I will ever have. Kills me a little everyday. But you are so young. I just don't think it's possible that you will never find a great one again!
lupa Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 Well, you have two choices -- 1) wallow in this realization 2) understand and accept this lesson and take it with you for the rest of your life If you can be a better person for it, you will be prepared the next time you find someone. (Trust me, there will be another out there. It doesn't feel like it, but there will.)
GrayClouds Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 Tonight I look back and realise I once had what I wanted all along but I was to young and dumb to realise it. My first bf was perfect. He loved me, treated me like and angel and was just all round everything I wanted from a relationship. This being my first relationship I thought all males were like this. I got kind of bored of my first love and thought it would be so easy to get someone just the same. This is why guys become jerks... At least your realizing it now... I wish you well
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