4givrnt4gtr Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 Ive been experiencing the most strange thing. Has anyone seen that movie Bruce Almighty?? You know when Bruce makes all this crazy signs appear for his gf to see? Yeah I feel just like she did. Yesterday I saw how good it was that my relationship ended. I was clearly able to see how far Ive come, and how me leaving was the best thing I could have done for myself. Ive been really happy. However everywhere i go, something is there to remind me (as the song goes). It doesnt make me sad anymore, it just trips me out....I keep trying to say its cuz Im much much more aware of things like that...but honestly, its just way too much sometime. FOr instance, yesterday. I was looking at my facebook, here there everywhere. I saw my ex posted something about Coffee which im a total addict and fien of and he knows it so I looked at it. Anyhow, I moved on from his page, went to mine and my friend sent me a chat. Well, when that happens the screen flashes...the name of the profile you are looking at intermittently with the name of the person who sent you a chat. I was in my page yet it kept flashing his name. So i shrugged it off, opened a new profile..but it kept going back to his name, even if the profile was someone elses. The glitch annoyed me but whatever, I ignored it...though it kept me on my toes as it kept looking like he had sent me a chat. So anyway as i said i went to other people profiles but nothing worked. SO then i accidently left the cursor on the tab that kept flashing so the address showed....it said http:/facebook 4givs ex-our love is strong as rock I was like WHAT!?! i kept looking around trying to figure out what that was.... Anyway i figured out that one of the profiles I had opened somehow was changed to that address but his name got stuck on that address so it looked like his profile had that address. It was just trippy. But i did the reasonable thing, laughed it off, shaked my head and whatever. Then today i go to my supervision and my supervisor says "what if a patient says they will jump out of (specific landmark on the city my ex moved to)" I was like . Keep in mind im many many many many miles and hours away from him. Totally out of left field. Then in class a girl was very animately talking about the fun two weeks she had at my ex's new city for vacation and how she now understands why people fall in love with the city or rather fall in love in the city. awesome. then at a coffee shop im sitting there studying, and this old song my ex dedicated to me started playing (like...old beattle song that its hardly played). I just kept thinking...ok, its just my perception, im just very very aware of everything about him, ill shake it off. Right after that song, the song that says "I turned on the lights, the TV And the radio Still I can't escape the ghost of you" started playing. I was like ok thats just freaking ridiculous. BUT i kept saying no no no its just me and my mind Im just in a very hypersensitive state its ok. I walked to browse some books, ran right smack into the calendar section, were a calendar of pictures from his area and city was proudly displayed. (And as I said Im hundreds of miles away from that area....MANY hundreds) By this point i was really really irritated so i made it a point to shrug it off and even if i did see something like that just ignore it. So i go about my business, pick up a book decide to buy it, I go to pay for it and saw one of those lovely page holders. I picked one that was very nice with a little bracelette that had a saying about dreams. SO i picked it up, read the little saying that also came in the page holder, I turned it around and saw in big bright bold letters NAME OF OBSCURE TOWN WHERE HE GROW UP AND I JUST CAME BACK FROM publishers. No...you dont understand...its this RANDOM town in the middle of nowhere....SERIOUSLY????? ARE U KIDDING ME??? Im so very irritated with life and the world and the universe right now. Right when I decide that the ending had been the best thing since sliced bread all this things keep getting thrown at me. Has this ever happened to you??? if so how did you stop them??? its driving me insane!!!!!
Darren09 Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 i quite enjoyed reading your post lol sounds like somebody is trying to tell you something...................... scary. I can relate to everything reminding you of a person but it totally depends how you look at it. Your doing okay tho jus see what happens day by day see if these things keep happenin
sunshinegirl Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 I've had similar experiences...which I started describing as it being like toilet paper stuck to your foot, trailing behind you wherever you go. I just wanted to get rid of the damn toilet paper! Don't worry, this stuff will diminish with time. When was your breakup?
Author 4givrnt4gtr Posted September 10, 2009 Author Posted September 10, 2009 Not long at all we broke up last wednesday so Ive officially been single for a week. At first it was really tough im not going to lie. Actually even this past tuesday I was crying and woe is me-ing and just floating by life. But then I mentally slap myself, took a hard look at the situation, at how he had no problem dismissing me when he didnt need me anymore yet still wanted to string me along. At how i deserve oh so much better and mostly, how slowly but surely im getting better at demanding that my needs are met and if thats not possible, deuces! SO that brought me out of the abyss. Then i started working at a site where people have to deal with much more serious and painful life situations, yet they keep going day after day, with a smile on their faces. And here i am crying over a retard that wasnt able to appreciate what he had. What a waste. So im doing a thousand times better. Im now able to see i got so many blessings in my life and if he didnt want to be part of it, thats his issue. Now if I could only stop seeing reminders of him EVERYWHERE. That'd be awesome.
Beeotch Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 Ive been experiencing the most strange thing. Has anyone seen that movie Bruce Almighty?? You know when Bruce makes all this crazy signs appear for his gf to see? Yeah I feel just like she did. Yesterday I saw how good it was that my relationship ended. I was clearly able to see how far Ive come, and how me leaving was the best thing I could have done for myself. Ive been really happy. However everywhere i go, something is there to remind me (as the song goes). It doesnt make me sad anymore, it just trips me out....I keep trying to say its cuz Im much much more aware of things like that...but honestly, its just way too much sometime. FOr instance, yesterday. I was looking at my facebook, here there everywhere. I saw my ex posted something about Coffee which im a total addict and fien of and he knows it so I looked at it. Anyhow, I moved on from his page, went to mine and my friend sent me a chat. Well, when that happens the screen flashes...the name of the profile you are looking at intermittently with the name of the person who sent you a chat. I was in my page yet it kept flashing his name. So i shrugged it off, opened a new profile..but it kept going back to his name, even if the profile was someone elses. The glitch annoyed me but whatever, I ignored it...though it kept me on my toes as it kept looking like he had sent me a chat. So anyway as i said i went to other people profiles but nothing worked. SO then i accidently left the cursor on the tab that kept flashing so the address showed....it said http:/facebook 4givs ex-our love is strong as rock I was like WHAT!?! i kept looking around trying to figure out what that was.... Anyway i figured out that one of the profiles I had opened somehow was changed to that address but his name got stuck on that address so it looked like his profile had that address. It was just trippy. But i did the reasonable thing, laughed it off, shaked my head and whatever. Then today i go to my supervision and my supervisor says "what if a patient says they will jump out of (specific landmark on the city my ex moved to)" I was like . Keep in mind im many many many many miles and hours away from him. Totally out of left field. Then in class a girl was very animately talking about the fun two weeks she had at my ex's new city for vacation and how she now understands why people fall in love with the city or rather fall in love in the city. awesome. then at a coffee shop im sitting there studying, and this old song my ex dedicated to me started playing (like...old beattle song that its hardly played). I just kept thinking...ok, its just my perception, im just very very aware of everything about him, ill shake it off. Right after that song, the song that says "I turned on the lights, the TV And the radio Still I can't escape the ghost of you" started playing. I was like ok thats just freaking ridiculous. BUT i kept saying no no no its just me and my mind Im just in a very hypersensitive state its ok. I walked to browse some books, ran right smack into the calendar section, were a calendar of pictures from his area and city was proudly displayed. (And as I said Im hundreds of miles away from that area....MANY hundreds) By this point i was really really irritated so i made it a point to shrug it off and even if i did see something like that just ignore it. So i go about my business, pick up a book decide to buy it, I go to pay for it and saw one of those lovely page holders. I picked one that was very nice with a little bracelette that had a saying about dreams. SO i picked it up, read the little saying that also came in the page holder, I turned it around and saw in big bright bold letters NAME OF OBSCURE TOWN WHERE HE GROW UP AND I JUST CAME BACK FROM publishers. No...you dont understand...its this RANDOM town in the middle of nowhere....SERIOUSLY????? ARE U KIDDING ME??? Im so very irritated with life and the world and the universe right now. Right when I decide that the ending had been the best thing since sliced bread all this things keep getting thrown at me. Has this ever happened to you??? if so how did you stop them??? its driving me insane!!!!! WOW...lmao I don't mean to laugh....it just seems like an annoying practical joke by the gods. Stuff like this happens to my bestfriend....but I don't know if it is because she is hypersensitive or it's coincidence. Whatever the reason I can imagine how weird it must be.
hoping2heal Posted September 11, 2009 Posted September 11, 2009 If it makes you feel any better, I've been through this with almost all my exes. The exact kind of stuff you're talking about, as it would turn out; NONE of them were right for me.
Author 4givrnt4gtr Posted September 11, 2009 Author Posted September 11, 2009 Oh i know, Ive had some stuff like that happened with other exs, but more like I see their same cars on the road, or like with a guy i liked in the military, i would often see commercials about his branch. But ive never had anything this ridiculous before. Ofcourse i dont really believe those thing mean that we are meant to be and someday prince charming will return. (thats my story and Im sticking to it ). But no, for real, despite whatever secret wishes i may harbor, i know rationally he isnt good for me. As my dad says, "there are two things you must remember in a relationship. The first time they tell you they love you and the first time they tell you they dont. There should never be a need for either to be repeated" He said he didnt love me and didnt know whether he could. 'Nough said, I walked. Still....those evil evil things. Oh! but i figured out how to deal with the main one, the one that keeps popping up, his city. I had finish about 90% of my application for doctoral program there as the plan was that i would join him next year. I was really excited because i LOVE the area, but after the breakup I thought about not going anymore given the circumstances. But i decided to take this city being so blatantly thrown in my face as a sign that i should go ahead and go regardless of whether he lives there or not. Is a big enough place, I would never seen him even if i did. So his city stopped being about him and more about me and my future and the wonderful people i will meet there.... I wish I could say im still as happy and carefree as i was when i started this thread, but i somehow slipped and fell back on wondering why and crying at some pictures i found of us. So many dreams and hopes....ah well.
Author 4givrnt4gtr Posted September 15, 2009 Author Posted September 15, 2009 Ok, I just HAD to post what happened yesterday cuz honestly I almost fell out of my chair and then what followed had me laughing like i lost my marbles. So i walk in to a class that just started yesterday. My masters is mostly women so when this really good looking man sat next to me i was thrilled. Eye candy!! I mean for a GUY let alone a HOT guy that i actually notice to come into my classes? yey! Thats all any man is gonna be for a while anyway. So i eye him, he's very cute, we get to sit in a circle so I get to eye him even more. While i was kinda looking without really looking I tried to guess his name....mark? he looked like a mark....tom maybe? anyhow introductions began and I was so very eager to hear what his name was...."hi! my name is 4givsex'sname" ..... My face -> :confused:!!! followed by !!!!!!! Figures...the ONE guy i think is cute in the WHOLE damn school....had to be name the same way as my ex....who, by the way doesnt have a normal every day name. Grrr!!! BUT as usual, crossed it off as "go figure" and Xed him just for that....(so sue me) So then im there for bassically an hour that the class lasts...then comes in the program director....tells me and 3 other people that wasnt even our class to begin with...our class which is the same but different professor and for some ungodly reason it was in the MBA floor...the only MFT class given in the MBA floor. (MFT my career, MBA my exs). Seriously?????? God laughs too much at me sometimes
EricaH329 Posted September 15, 2009 Posted September 15, 2009 Ugh, this happens to me all the time. The other day I turned on the T.V. to watch a movie, and there were about 3 movies with *his* name in the title, I avoided those, and the one I turned on had his name for the main character!! Give me a break!! Beatles anthology has been playing non-stop on T.V. and all of our songs are by the Beatles. I was watching the show 'Intervention' yesterday and it just so happened that the guy was from the exact small town in PA that my ex is from. When I go out, I always see something that has to do with him. I don't go looking for those things, I want more than anything to forget about him, but there's always something there to remind me. I feel your pain!!
Author 4givrnt4gtr Posted November 22, 2009 Author Posted November 22, 2009 Wow.... So apparently every time i decide to let him go, all these things start happening again. This week I decided to let my ex go for good. On tuesday I went to a bookstore to search for a planner. The planners are set away from all the books, by the coffee shop. Well i was looking at the planners and right in the middle of them, there was my ex's favorite book from his childhood. I know what it is because once when we were browsing he asked me if i knew it and I said ive never heard of it. He was shocked and dragged me to the children's section and sat me down while he read me the book. Needless to say, made me slightly sad. THen wednesday after talking to a friend for a few hours he convinced me to let my ex go and delete him from fb. After that we went back to my car and as s oon as I we turned on the radio the song my ex told me reminded him of me before we started dating was playing. Its also the same song I told him i would remember whenever I got nervous about his feelings for me, to remind myself he loved me. Given my resolution I changed the station, only to have the next station playing the same song. I changed it again and my friend was indignant cuz he loves the song. So he sang it all the way home. (jerk) As I said I deleted my ex from fb, however today when I signed on I was greated with updates about him. I rechecked to make sure I had deleted him, surely enough he is deleted AND blocked. Yeah....i dont even know...
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