d560 Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 I just found this site today. I have seen several people that seem to have this problem, but all them arn't just like mine. Idk what I hope to get out of this maybe just someone to give me feedback on what I feel. Well heres how it goe: Me and my girlfriend meet when we are both freshmen in highschool. We start dating the junior year. We are both 16. Her parents are divorced and she has a bad mom. So after a few months of dateing (4) and sleeping at her friends house together(my mom and dad are split up and I do what I want lol) Well my moms fine with it we live their for about a year and a half, fighting and breaking up off and on. Well my mom remarrys and me and her loss our bedroom to my new stepdads mom (very old can't live alone) So having a brother, a sister, 2 step brothers, and a step sister I move to my dads with her so we can still sleep in the same bed. She gets a job (iv had on) she gets so mad over stuff so I tell her to quit after a few months. Well every thing is find till we finish high school and break up again. Well after 2 days we meet and have sex.(btw i was her first) Well then a week later shes comes to get her stuff and I find out she sleept with another guy. Idk why but i was so f**king mad I was about to ask her to be with me again and this crushed that. So I meet a new girl a week later date and then we break up because she just broke up with her ex 2 days before we meet. So start to miss my Girlfreind and call her up and we meet. Im about to tell her i love her and can't live without her and I find out she had sex with another guy that day. This in furiated me again. So i left her again. She called me for 2 weeks wanting me back and I stod my ground cause of that stuff. I was also mad she didnt have a job.(im a very money orianted person, I feel it makes the world we live in go) So a week later it hits me I love this person with all my heart. So i go back and talk to her and she has a date that day. Well i dont tell her not to go and i tryed to give her up. The next 3 days its me breaking out in tears trying to get her back. Well i finial ask her to marry me....cause i couldnt live with out her she takes it. A week later she breaks up with me because she says she likes that guy and feels like its cheating. Well after a week of me crying again we get back together. And after 2 months of being with each other. She says I havnt changed and shes moving to her sisters and I tell her its over if she goes she cant just run away from our problems. So she changes her myspace and facebook to shes single. But its been a week and we still live and I drive us to collage every day (40miles one way) And she still just says shes moving out well today iv just hurt so bad like phystical heart pain. I put a ice pack and it helped and i had her hit me hard a few times. And I felt good for a hour or so(for some resion good or bad im unable to hurt myself physicaly) Well we go to bed at 9 pm and i just bust out in tears. And shes like its not that bad i still love you and want nothing to happen to you. And I just say It doesn't matter. She says would it help if shes mean to me. I say no. she goes to bed as i go outside. And I just don't know what I did she used to love me so much. I mean im not perfect but ive never cheated, hit, iv supported her. I mean Im a really nice person....I have a few bad things. She hates how i play games....and i try and stop and havnt played in a week and no change in her. She getts mad because I..try for..anal sex...well we havnt had sex in over 2 weeks. She says I dont try and i just dont get how i dont. It seems like i have nothing without her even though i do. And after she went to bed i looked at google and found sites about how to kill ur self painlessly and then i found this site, Im not going to kill myself just letting you all know. And seems like people on this site might help me. I know it takes time but i dont want it to heal i want her. If we did get back it would feel like she was with me cause she felt pitty for me and i dont want that. Thing will never be as they were both of us happy i feel. But i just want to make her try and be happy ...with me....its just so hard i feel one resion she doesnt want to be with me is she started collage with me 2 weeks ago and i just feel like she wants to date otehr people and that kills me to just hear her talk about another guy or see her messaging a guy...even when its a guy on the other side of the world...theirs one....and i just cant get her out of my head i cant sleep cause shes in our bed and i just bust into tears when i get close and idk what to do.... any advise...she will probly read this in the morning ...idk what she will think...
b391 Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 so many things wrong with this post 1) yes when i had a job and hated it, you told me o well its what we need and that if i quit then you would break up w me bc im soo irrasponisible and thats what you love 2) when we broke up you had your new gf txt me and say tons of **** to me when i wanted you back so much it killed me and you didnt seem to care, so what i do with other pple is none of your busines exsp when before that i was called a horrible names 3)you forgot to mention how you slept w the young little girl you were dateing and would go see her everyday and take her to do stuff 4)i told you i was moven out and still wanted you and YOU decided to take it upon yourself to make it all bad, you said if you do that then were done so i said NO there has to b more than those two options- one was sit here n fight everyday or leave- but you said no thats how your making it 5) you have played games everyday but one for two weeks, and idc when you do when you come home and play w ur friends, i liek your friends, its just when you tell me that it makes you the happiest out of everything and you go to school come home, play games and leave me all alone to just sit there, SERIOUSLY what is the difference if i am there or not?6) oyeah you forgot to mention how you had a secret internet gf and then lied about it 7) btw EVERY time im on the computer you see everything im doing but you still occuse me of cheatin when your right there next to me! 8) and why did you care to mention how i changed for you? i mean i went two weeks keeping my mouth shut and no arguing and guess what! you still said mean **** to me and then the final draw was when you called me a SLUT in school PS i only read this bc he pointed it out to me
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