JL911 Posted September 8, 2009 Posted September 8, 2009 Sitting around this morning just thinking to myself...And finally something came to me...I did so much for my ex, and she really never did all that much for me. I helped her buy a car, helped her proofread tons of papers throughout college, I helped her move out of college 3 or so times, I always made the effort to visit her, drive to her home, buy her great gifts for her birthdays, and was the one who always had things for us to do while she was just bland and downright boring 90% of the time...My friends were her friends, and her friends were not even her friends. I included her in my social circle and everyone accepted her. My family appreciated and accepted her...And she stuck me in the back with the biggest knife ever... She never had to worry about me or help me with a decision for me. I bought my truck, bought my boat, have always paid all my own bills, and have done a pretty good job of always taking care of myself. I'm independant, not easily manipulated, and can exhist without a female by my side...Alpha Male...I did not and still do not need her to make myself happy... Even when it ended she blamed me really for the majority of our problems, and picked me apart with these little stupid petty things from the music I liked to the way I clean up my room. All of these things were things that she always knew from day one. She knew what she was doing, she was trying to break me down as much as she could before she walked away so she could crawl back to me if need be. Its not happening...I'm not going through this BS again....Its done... I loved her, but the second I started doing things to benefit myself and my future (which I thought would be our future) she just left and left me hanging and very very hurt....That is not something I feel is very desirable and was very immature on her part. I dont need it... I met someone over the weekend...I got a feeling I haven't had in awhile...I was shy but witty ...I'm going to persue her now... I guess maybe I am starting to no longer care. As much as I loved her...I dont think I want her back...I think I am done...Her loss is now my gain...
Exit Posted September 8, 2009 Posted September 8, 2009 Yeah, I've realized this about my relationship too, but for some reason I still want her back. I used my mechanical knowledge to keep her 20 year old BMW running so she could get to work, I paid for her vehicle registration stickers, I drove her everywhere, I gave her money when she came up short for bills at the end of the month, I took her on a vacation, bought her groceries, etc etc etc. I can count the things she did for me on one hand. But like you said, she managed to tear me apart enough at the end that I still feel like the failure.
jv032889 Posted September 8, 2009 Posted September 8, 2009 I did too little! I've realized she did so much for me. Gave me money for clothes, bills, gas. She bought me expensive gifts. We went to dinner every weekend. We took mini vacations to places I've never been just so I could experience it. The list could go on and on. I was always broke:sick: I now know why she wouldn't want to be with someone like me. I depended on her too much.
huck Posted September 8, 2009 Posted September 8, 2009 Been there JL... You probably realised at the time that you werent getting back what you were putting in ( I was the same as you ) - but they say love is blind.. Its not until you meet someone else better than your ex - that you realise how much you were taken for granted...
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