itsabigpond Posted September 7, 2009 Posted September 7, 2009 Hi all, I've endured the worst couple of months of my life. It has made me question everything that I believe in and has taken me all the way down to rock-bottom. It was May 2009 and my wife, my son and I were starting to make arrangements to move house to the dream home. However, that was when the spectacular collapse happened. At the end of May, my wife split with me and I was asked to leave our family home and move back to my parents. At the very same time, my father was due in hospital for a serious heart operation. Two days after his operation, he passed away. So I had to deal with the loss of my Father, my wife and my house. To cap it all, within a day of me leaving, my wife moved another man (albeit only a friend at the time - really, I'm not being naive) into the house for "support". I, however, was back in my Mum's flat, living in my Father's office (surrounded by his stuff). Things got worse - more hurt caused by trying to see my son and comments from my wife (I won't go into details here). For several weeks I went on a downward spiral - I was just in tears all the time. However, I then found some emotional strength from somewhere (I still don't know where) and made the decision to stop being the victim. I started to read information about NLP, meditation and general self-help guides to help build up my confidence. As part of my recovery, I took the decision to start an anonymous blog to write about all the things I am trying and all of my funny successes and failures ( http://itsabigpond.blogspot.com ). I have found it to be a very therapeutic way to release my pent-up emotions and get through any failures on my new journey. So I would recommend it to others who are going through difficult times. By no means am I out of the woods yet. I know that all of that hurt is still in there somewhere and it will take time for me to get through it all. But I have taken a big positive step and as long as I keep doing that, I feel that things should start to go my way a bit more. Tiny Clownfish __________________ ItsaBIGpond - my personal development blog: http://itsabigpond.blogspot.com
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