Beeotch Posted September 6, 2009 Posted September 6, 2009 Well I have read others' stories of their ex popping up some time after NC or reappearing when they do not care anymore.... Now it is my turn..... So I have not seen my ex since May...our last phone conversation was in June on Father's Day. We have not spoken since, except for him making random comments on my Twitter page. He has a new gf now (which is a sham relationship ) and I have pretty much felt free and unburdened about him. I came to a place of acceptance that he has issues and that I already KNOW him well and I KNOW what he is doing. I feel like it is a movie I have watched already and I know how it will play out...he is doing all these ridiculous things to avoid himself, his issues and me because I know him more than anyone else. I stopped beng anxious, worried, upset and angry and have felt completely at peace as if I know the outcome and also that no matter what occurs happiness is waiting in my future. So comes last night at around 11.....my cell rings and I see a number come up that is not listed under a name then I realize it is him (I had deleted his number) and I was surprised but in some weird way I didn't feel that shocked...he is speaking to me asking in a fake surprised tone of voice about if I wasn't going out tonight and I said I was not but my friend was having a party at her apartment upstairs and I might stop by....he proceeds to speak about how he is driving around aimlessly because he wants to go out...and I just say ohh and laugh. He keeps saying he wants to be out and he is supposedly driving around aimlessly....he then says ohh he thought about me because we always used to go out and so he thought he would call me to see how I was doing. He keeps hinting at what I'm doing and then he asks me how long is it going to take me to get ready...I thought he was talking about for my friend's party so I said I didn't know, it was just upstairs. I also said no one wanted to go with me so I might not go. Then he invites himself saying "Oh I'll go with you..." wow. So my ex ends up coming over and in my head I am laughing hysterically...because this is weird but at the same time it was not as weird to see him as I thought it would be. Plus it was me him, my sister and friends so it was not one on one. Also the way he was looking at me....was not in a platonic way at all. He leaves at 2 am saying he is going to the stripclub or some such and then says that was the original plan. I asked him to drive me back around to my apartment and he seemed like he wanted to ask me something before I left but I said "Have fun" and then he replies "I'll try" as if he doesnt want to go or he sounds forlorn or something.He then tells me to have fun at my friend's party and how he knows he was holding me back from getting wild and then he says "Talk to you later..." It was an interesting night that raised some questions...BUT NOT in the OMG I broke NC now I am upset, anxious, angry, hopeful etc way. Oddly I feel no different than if this never happens and I love it I am truly on the road to recovery if not almost 100% there. I have questions in terms of hmmmm so why is he trying to hang out with me when he has a gf? What happened to her? Did he have a motive for this? Was it hard for him to do this? Etc.....but I'm not worried because as I said, I have this odd feeling that I have watched this show before and know the happenings so I don't feel nervous, upset, anxious etc. I shall keep u all posted..............
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