lizzylizliz Posted September 6, 2009 Share Posted September 6, 2009 I cried loads, and begged him back, the usual embarassing things. But I've since made it up to him, when I found out he's gotten back with his ex, I told him they are both dead to me, and to never waste my life by talking to me. INcidentally I have spoken to him since...when I was drunk, I publicaly announced he has a small penis and is rubbish in bed...to which his friend said 'yeah but you girls always say that at the end of a relationship....' to which i laughed and said 'no, i used to say it when we were together, don't you remember?' He stormed off. I've since apologised for being mean, but it does make me laugh a little to think of it. He's an arrogant little rat and needs knocking down a peg or two. At the end of an earlier relationship, I tried to OD, and ende dup in hospital, with my family livid at me, because they didn't understand. That was the lowest low- I'm never going there again. However bad it gets, I won't be looking up at a hospital ceiling again. No man's worth that. FACT. Link to post Share on other sites
GrayClouds Posted September 6, 2009 Share Posted September 6, 2009 I am ashamed I still miss her,the cheating, lying, coward she is Link to post Share on other sites
jlr Posted September 6, 2009 Share Posted September 6, 2009 she broke up with me when we were out to eat. after 5 years. we went home (we lived together). we cried alot. i got mad. angry. numb. i slept on the couch. i could hear her crying all night long. i woke up the next day like a zombie, called my mom and went to her house. i stayed there for a week. after a week, i went back and got all my stuff and moved out. i honestly was numb. i shut off. i remember her yelling to me off the balcony as i got in my car when i was moving my stuff. i was crying, but i didn't respond to her. i shut it out. i remember being numb for like 2 months. i honestly don't even remember what i did during those few months. then it hit me so hard and i began to let all my emotions flood out. around that time, we started hanging out again, and i thought there was hope. we were sleeping together again and whatnot. 6 months after going back and forth with it, she found someone else and ripped my heart out all over again. now, i'm back to the part where i'm a flood of emotions. i hate this so much. Link to post Share on other sites
EmperorR Posted September 8, 2009 Share Posted September 8, 2009 Cried for weeks, calle in sick at work, wrote letters poems, begged on my hands and knees for a cheater. I wish I could go back and slap myself. Lost my appetite, lost so much weight, one bite I would be filled. Link to post Share on other sites
joseffrost Posted September 8, 2009 Share Posted September 8, 2009 We broke up on a Friday and I went on a bender for the whole weekend. Then on Sunday night I booked a flight to Ireland and a hire car to go see her, I spent the whole day trying to reason with her but flew home that night having achieved nothing. For the next month I intermittently called and texted, but to no avail. I'd actually been ok for a long time until this week (hence my relative silence on LS of late). Had a drunken one night stand at the weekend and it made me feel so guilty. Ridiculous really, but I guess these things really do affect us strangely. Link to post Share on other sites
GrayClouds Posted September 8, 2009 Share Posted September 8, 2009 We broke up on a Friday and I went on a bender for the whole weekend. Then on Sunday night I booked a flight to Ireland and a hire car to go see her, I spent the whole day trying to reason with her but flew home that night having achieved nothing. For the next month I intermittently called and texted, but to no avail. I'd actually been ok for a long time until this week (hence my relative silence on LS of late). Had a drunken one night stand at the weekend and it made me feel so guilty. Ridiculous really, but I guess these things really do affect us strangely. Sorry man the stuff lingers Link to post Share on other sites
silic0ntoad Posted September 8, 2009 Share Posted September 8, 2009 Hm. I didn't beg. Or plead. I tried reason. Sense. Nothing over the top. I am ashamed that maybe I came off as letting go too easily. Maybe I did flip out and want answers. But I never begged. Not once. Perhaps I am too prideful. Thus my repentance. Link to post Share on other sites
joseffrost Posted September 8, 2009 Share Posted September 8, 2009 Sorry man the stuff lingers It really does. It's amazing how you can go for weeks thinking that you're on top of the world, then suddenly a series of events conspires to drag you back into it. It CAN'T be a coincidence that she emailed me 'just to say hi' after I posted that, the cosmos must be against me! Link to post Share on other sites
jv032889 Posted September 8, 2009 Share Posted September 8, 2009 I got dumped a few days after my bday. I wrote numerous letters. I texted her, called her. I lost weight, couldnt sleep. I begged her not to go. I went to her mom's house and cried to her for 2 hours. Two months later we tried again. Repeat the above process . Tried one more time a month ago. Same outcome. Link to post Share on other sites
livingnightmare Posted September 9, 2009 Share Posted September 9, 2009 I begged cried pleaded argued the works and wen i found out she was sleeping around after breaking with me after 6 yrs I spat in her mouth and slapped her I know this was wrong but wen u get told the gory details and uve allready been diagnosed with major depression its very hard to rationalise things feel so hurt and lonely now, no belief in myself at all at the moment! realy need this to pass! Link to post Share on other sites
logitech Posted September 9, 2009 Share Posted September 9, 2009 I assumed the faetal position and cried uncontrollably. My cat thought it was strange so he bit me. I did this numerous times randomly. Basically didn't eat for over a week and didn't sleep either. Even now a month on I still stay awake until I am tired enough to sleep to the next day, since waking up in the middle of the night is not cool. I hand-wrote her a letter trying to keep positive all the things I loved about her (the ol' pedastal treatment). I let her know that I was aware of many of my failings. I called a national radio station when they had a segment about internet addiction and told my sob story. I tried to make sure I was still involved in her life somehow going to see a band I knew that she had tickets to (possibly the worst thing I did). In then end if I had to reflect on it. I would still give her the letter since it was my only chance to tell my true feelings. Saves leaving on a note of animosity since I could say now that I still love her but am trying not to. Currently in the process of NC. Link to post Share on other sites
Beeotch Posted September 9, 2009 Share Posted September 9, 2009 Sending email after email.... And WORST of the WORST agreeing to have bday 3some with him and his ex-wife for his bday.... :rolleyes: I know I know. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WAS SMOKING! But thankfully I came to my senses and did not do it.... I am ashamed that I even entertained that fool with that, I suppose I was vulnerable and thought that would get me into his good graces or I just wanted to act out....I don't know HOWEVER, I am glad to say I didn't do it and gladly I recognize how STUPID it was and how ridiculous, selfish, asinine he is for even asking that... WOOPS! Just reread the initial post....I did NONE of this the day of. I did the emails days/weeks after and the 3some foolishness was done maybe a month or so after. Link to post Share on other sites
soheartbroken Posted September 9, 2009 Share Posted September 9, 2009 I just want to say that a lot the behaviour here is nothing to be ashamed of. e.g. crying uncontrollably in the fetal position. It means we all loved very deeply and didn't repress our feelings! Link to post Share on other sites
borbiusle Posted September 10, 2009 Share Posted September 10, 2009 Prior to breakup-day, my ex-GF calls me literally in tears it seemed, crying to me about all her personal problems and at the end of the conversation, she tells me she loves me. Distraught by this, I try to call/txt her back all day but get no response. After work, I drive over to her place unannounced. During the ride, I try to call her, no response. I go to her house and notice that her car is gone, and some random dude's car is parked in the front. I circle the perimeter of her house, knocking on windows, trying to get her attention, no response. I came to close simply picking the lock on her front door and simply waltzing in, but I had enough composure to stop myself and leave. Around 4am, I get a txt from her and she says that she had a really crap day and was sleeping that night, and that's why she didn't respond to me at all. The next day, I show up once more at 6am unannounced, in my military work uniform , and her dad lets me in. I go to her room to see her, and ask her what happened last night. She tells me she was sleeping. I ask her again, she gives me the same lame response. I finally tell her what I did the night prior and she gives me a shocked/guilty look. I ask her if she's seeing someone else, she sheepishly replies "no". I cross-examine and grill her with questions and eventually she can't keep up with the lies/excuses and simply becomes angry with me, calling me "immature". She finally tells me that she lost feelings for me 6 weeks prior to us breaking up. I kick her dog and storm out of her house and told her she was a "waste of time" and a "liar". I go to work and exchange some heated words with her via txt, but I managed to not say anything too vile or wicked and ultimately wished her luck, so I don't have any regrets in that regard. I wish I could've handled it better but I really don't feel bad about what I've done all that much. If I hadn't gone over to her place, God knows how long she would have spent stringing me along pretending to be my GF, feeding me sob stories about her life's problems before it all blew up in my face. Stalking around her house might not have been the most healthiest thing to do but at least it gives me some closure since she didn't have the courage to be straight with me and end the relationship sooner. Link to post Share on other sites
0hpenelope Posted September 13, 2009 Share Posted September 13, 2009 I went crazy. Got jealous of his girl friends that I shouldn't have felt jealousy towards. He brought out the worst in me and I didn't like who I was at all. Most of the craziness, I don't remember anymore. I don't remember the good memories that I had w/ him, either. I'd remember something, but then finishing an entire memory of the trip we took, or the conversation we had about something... impossible now. I'm ashamed when I think of the craziness, but through it all, it doesn't matter. We've nothing to do with each other now. Link to post Share on other sites
mimiminx Posted September 13, 2009 Share Posted September 13, 2009 The day he packed his stuff out of our apartment, I followed him in my car for about half an hour. I was stalking him on the freeway. Bad decision, I'm embarrassed. Link to post Share on other sites
jaybird1043 Posted September 13, 2009 Share Posted September 13, 2009 Still working through it...I cannot sleep, its 3am now and I'm wide awake!!! Did not do anything crazy but I'm not through it yet. Link to post Share on other sites
Bobby2010 Posted September 13, 2009 Share Posted September 13, 2009 i found out she was sleeping around after breaking with me after 6 yrs I spat in her mouth and slapped her I'm ashamed of myself for not doing this. Link to post Share on other sites
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