Aurelian Posted September 1, 2009 Posted September 1, 2009 I know I have to walk away from this but can't. I am BUt addicted to a woman who in no way could be right for me. It is painful just writing this. She is afraid of intimacy. She told me when men get too close she runs and she is starting to do that now. However it is just one of those things. She seems so beautiful and sexy all the time for me I lose total control. She also has two special needs kids that love me and i love them. In order to go NC with her I will have to leave the church I am going to right now, and, for me it would be like I was not tough enough to deal with this. But I would have to get myself back together and that can only be by not being around her at all and gradually forgetting she exists. Sorry for the disjointedness of this but I cannot control the thoughts coming out of my head. I am a farking wreck.
Author Aurelian Posted September 1, 2009 Author Posted September 1, 2009 I am about as crazy as I can get right now. Constantly looking at the facebook page, unable to eat, gah!! This sucks. I know it will take time and working on me. I just do not want to see her anymore. It is a true addiction and has to be broken. Its just that the process to do it is painful and requires time.
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