Sbrizio Posted September 1, 2009 Posted September 1, 2009 One of the worst feeling i'm experiencing now is weakness. Of course in normal life you always have contact with friends, relatives, etc; you receive support, you provide support, in many different ways. But in these times i feel like i can't function, i can't even do nothing more than basic things without some psycological external support. I try to reach for my friends, which have been up to now incredibly supportive...but i feel bad, because i feel that i "need" them. I don't want to smother them, but sometime i just switch to panic mode. I don't want all this to affect the rest of my life. I would prefer to be able to stand the pain alone. Maybe it's just because of the vacation time, and most of my friends are far, whereas my vacations have been screwed up by my break-up, but i see that i'm not able to even judge things and events correctly without an external POV: i get lost in my interpretations, often distorced - of course i talk about the relationship and myself in general. I think i need to be reassured and validated, the break-up has completely screwed-up my self confidence. It's horrible. I wonder how can i have this pass... usually it takes personal victories to rebuild self confidence, and as of now i'm not even able to "function properly" This is f**g unfair. I've loved this person with all myself, and i felt we were on a equilibrated relationship. Now i'm desperately trying to keep in place all the pieces of my life, which are crumbling away, and she's on a beach enjoying the sea and the sun. And i can't even call her b***ch. Because this **** happens.
Funky Posted September 1, 2009 Posted September 1, 2009 I know the feeling, you get mad at the person and are like f*** her she doesn't deserve my love. Then 5 minutes later your like f*** why can't I stay mad at herr, she caused me to much pain and suffering yet I just can't stay mad at her. I suppose that's true love, well that's what I think anyways, no matter what the person does you still love her and would want nothing more then to be with her again to show her that love.
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