borbiusle Posted September 1, 2009 Posted September 1, 2009 Haven't spoken to my ex-GF for about a month and change now. No facebook, no pics, none of the sort exists, no gifts in my room, nada. Lately though, sometimes I'm walking down the street and see a car that looks like hers or someone with the same body/hair color as her, I get that sinking feeling in my stomach and get a crazy urge to satisfy my curiosity. I take a peek, realize it's nothing, and kind of feel relieved yet filled with anxiety at the same time. Tonight, I was throwing out my trash and I see a dude with the exact same car as mine, wearing similar clothes as me, hanging out with a chick that barely resembles my ex-gf from up-close. I get in my car and drive away and all of a sudden, my mind just starts filling in the blanks on this random chick and I started to see my ex-gf face on her instead. In that moment, I relapsed back into day one of our break-up, and got filled with all kinds of emotions and depressing thoughts. I took a drive downtown and did some shopping at Wal-mart, by the time I got out the store, I felt mostly back to normal, but still very shaken up till now. I realize I'm nowhere near over her despite the fact I've cut her out my life. My mind sees similarities and just starts going wild and filling my head with all kinds of what-ifs and false hopes of seeing her again. I really don't know what to do about this....
JMA707 Posted September 1, 2009 Posted September 1, 2009 I know how you feel...there are times where I feel strong, like I can keep going and move on with my life. Then there are times where my mind plays tricks on me and it kind of ruins the rest of my day...the nights and mornings are worst because I dream about her alot...In my dreams I'm always with her again, then I wake up and realize it was all fake...pretty much makes me pissed off at my own lack of control over my emotions...
phoenix1 Posted September 1, 2009 Posted September 1, 2009 That's grief...it does funny things to you like that.
Author borbiusle Posted September 1, 2009 Author Posted September 1, 2009 That's grief...it does funny things to you like that. I don't feel sad persay, I just feel like I've hit rock-bottom in an emotional sense, my inner-confidence just kind of died out overnight.
mr heartbroken Posted September 2, 2009 Posted September 2, 2009 i am rather lucky my ex stays over 2hours away so i dont really see her much. her parents still live less than 2mins away though. i thought i seen her and my stomach flipt my heart sank and my love and lust came back. i know that i am not over her. the thought of another guy touching her kills me. however i met up with her and spoke about a lot of things. i still love her but i am not sure if i could ever love her in a way that i used to. she desrtoyed the person that i was. i have since grown from this and a see it as a lesson. you must learn from it. you might see her again just tell yourself of you were still with her would you be doing the great things that you are doing right now? do you still want get back with her?
Author borbiusle Posted September 2, 2009 Author Posted September 2, 2009 i am rather lucky my ex stays over 2hours away so i dont really see her much. her parents still live less than 2mins away though. i thought i seen her and my stomach flipt my heart sank and my love and lust came back. i know that i am not over her. the thought of another guy touching her kills me. however i met up with her and spoke about a lot of things. i still love her but i am not sure if i could ever love her in a way that i used to. she desrtoyed the person that i was. i have since grown from this and a see it as a lesson. you must learn from it. you might see her again just tell yourself of you were still with her would you be doing the great things that you are doing right now? do you still want get back with her? We can't get back together, we've lost respect for each other and she lies to my face even after I caught her lying to me about many things over the course of 1 month with damning evidence, it's hopeless. Too big of an elephant in the room to ignore you know...., it can't work. It really sucks, I was starting to go back to my normal self, found someone who was interested in me about a week ago, and then I relapse. It's terrible.
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