skreen23 Posted August 30, 2009 Posted August 30, 2009 Had a really good week this week. My sister got married and as our father died 2 years ago i gave her away. Felt so proud and happy for her as i lead her down the aisle. She looked gorgeous. The reception was fantastic, plenty of beer, grass and lots of friends and family. Had a great time flirting with a girl there, danced with her all night. Then next day BAMMM. I just felt so alone. I looked at my sister and felt jealous. I wished my ex-fiancee was there, part of me doubts i'll ever get married and this scares me. All the plans we made together are gone and i feel so lonely. A close friend of mine was there with his fiancee (they're getting married next year) and i felt jealous. It seems for the past few weeks i'm full of negative emotions, primarily jealousy and anger. I almost hate my ex for turning me into this. I'm normally a positive upbeat person, not this gobsh*te.
quankanne Posted August 31, 2009 Posted August 31, 2009 I think it's normal to go though a stage of feeling let down after experiencing something like a joyful event ... and I'm pretty sure it's the idea of change that's what's triggering those feelings. don't drag your ex into this, because she's peripheral to what's going on inside you; you need a face for these feelings and she's handy. instead, try turning this feeling around and looking at it from another point of view. You are naturally going to feel some kind of loss, but the pay-off is that you are actually gaining something. A brother-in-law, sure; in a few years, babies to spoil that you can give back when they need feeding or changing you're going to be okay, skreen, I'll bet the farm on that. hugs, q
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