katty774 Posted August 30, 2009 Posted August 30, 2009 Well I am one messed up individual. I just kissed my ex bf, the ex before the most previous ex. Confused yet? me too. When I started dating my most recent ex I was trying to get over Steve. Well now my heart is broken over Matt. I have been dealing with alot of different issues lately. Nephew is vry sick, etc. My ex Steve has called, text, etc. to check on me. Very sweet of him. I was so in to him when we dated. He broke up with me because he wasnt ready for a girlfriend, I was crushed. I started dating Matt... which you all know tht story if you read my earlier post. Well Steve and I text, etc. His band played tnite and he wanted me to come out to hear them. I thought it would be good to get out of the house for awhile. I text him and told him I doubted I would come because it was just too hard to see him with another woman. He said she wouldn't be coming. THis is the first time he has admitted that he has a girlfriend. Well I went to hear his band played. He was more attentive to me than he ever was when we dated. He ended up driving me home because I had something to drink. He wanted me to be safe. I only had 1 1/2 beers and one shot but he said I was slurring my words. I agreed to letting him take me home. well it breaks my heart that he has a gf but tnite when he brought me home we kissed. Actually we had shared a few kisses. I know this was wrong but we did. I even apologized for kissing him. Here is my thing... Why did we kiss? I even apologized for kissing him. The weirdest thing was I was ok with watching him play and I even told him thT it was good that now I could watch and not be bothered with these feelings. I said You don't get to me nymore and he said well I guess its just me now. I feel so stupid now for kissing him. He walked me to the door and we kissed for a few minutes. I feel bad about it because he has a gf now and we shouldn't have kissed. It took me a long time to get over him. Now Im just confused. Why did he kiss me when he has a new gf. Oh yeah when we were at the bar, he came up to me and said Just for the record I do miss you. I am so weak. I still want him and I know I shouldn't.
callingyouuu Posted August 30, 2009 Posted August 30, 2009 Why did he kiss me when he has a new gf. Well why you kissed him when you know that he has a new gf? I think you'll find it has a similar answer. He wasn't lying when he said that he missed you, but missing you is very far from "I hate my girlfriend and I want to get back together with you." I think the kiss has set you back a bit. You were over him before and told him that, so he found a way to make sure you didn't forget him. Kind of insensitive, if you ask me. Until you're able to find your strength again, I think you know what you need to do.
Author katty774 Posted August 30, 2009 Author Posted August 30, 2009 I just feel rotten now about kissing Steve. I don't have any thoughts that it means we are getting back together, etc. it just makes me feel sad. We had such a mature breakup and we have continued to be good friends. He has really been there for me during my nephews illness and my friends passing away and now I feel like we may have screwed that up. Sure I may be over analyzing it like I do a lot of stuff and I am sure he has not given the kisses we shared one more thought. I will admit that the kisses didn't ignite the fire that it use to. My mind keeps thinking wow, he's not the guy I thought he was. The guy I thought I knew would never kiss another woman if he had a girlfriend. Makes me wonder if he kissed other girls when we were together. Oh well I just need to post to see if I can get some other point of views. At least my mind isn't on Matt.
Author katty774 Posted August 30, 2009 Author Posted August 30, 2009 After Steve left I sent him a text last nite (his phone automatically turns off at 12, so knew he wouldn't get it until today) The text said - Thank you for the ride. Sorry for the weak moment. He text me back this morning and said -Hey! You're welcome!! I'm sorry too. I guess I didn't realize how attracted to you I still am. Didn't take long to remember though:o Now I need advice- Do I text anything back or just leave it alone??? I know I should just leave it well enough alone. Oh one point I failed to mention and really shouldn't but need advice so will post it even though it is embarrassing...When he kissed me last nite he pressed up against me and Yes you could definitely tell he was still attracted to me, well at least a part of him is... I know I am an awful person for wanting someone back who has a gf now. Well at least I'm not contacting Matt. lol. It has been over a month since we split up. Please give me advice..
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