Sbrizio Posted August 28, 2009 Posted August 28, 2009 Over the two months mark after break-up, and a fair amount of NC. I start to realize that a part of me wants to move on...but i'm faced to my fears: - of not being able to find anyone like her - of not being able to seduce her, anyway - of not being able to have a succesfull relationship I spend a lot of my time thinking back to what i had or imagining a dark future of a life without love. The crazy thing is that i have a decent life, a supporting family (even if geographically far from me), friends, a good job with interesting opportunities, i live in a beautiful place, i got a brand new motorcycle... I should not complain about anything and enjoy my life. Instead, everything in my life looks shallow and unrelevant with respect to my lost love. The though of her is overwhelming me. Every morning i wake up thinking about her, and i fight back my memories and fears during the day. On the side, I see friends of mine having GFs, getting dumped, and regain stability (and new GFs) in a matter of weeks. Am i completely out of mind? Or maybe they weren't in love and i was? (for sure i was!). Or, i'm just facing my own fears and insecurities, and the loss of her is only a trigger for my unhappiness? These days i feel i just wake up only to fight my way through the day.
dianna Posted August 28, 2009 Posted August 28, 2009 Let me tell you that you are not alone. Im almost in the same situation and for the last 2 months I started to hate -my phone -waking up -wishing and so much more And oh..the nights...terrible nights. I've got friends who are breaking up and they are ok the NEXT DAY . But let me tell you THAT's not love. Many many hugs , hope we all get through this hell.
icyness Posted August 28, 2009 Posted August 28, 2009 Exactly what I feel like. I feel as if I'm just dealing with/facing another day rather than living it like one should be doing. Dianna, I hear you. I can't believe the little things that are all this sudden so upsetting to me that normally wouldn't even be an issue, like my phone ringing or something. We've got to be better for all this in the end.
icyness Posted August 28, 2009 Posted August 28, 2009 These days i feel i just wake up only to fight my way through the day. Exactly what I feel like. I feel as if I'm just dealing with/facing another day rather than living it like one should be doing. Dianna, I hear you. I can't believe the little things that are all this sudden so upsetting to me that normally wouldn't even be an issue, like my phone ringing or something. We've got to be better for all this in the end.
GrayClouds Posted August 28, 2009 Posted August 28, 2009 Exactly what I feel like. I feel as if I'm just dealing with/facing another day rather than living it like one should be doing. Dianna, I hear you. I can't believe the little things that are all this sudden so upsetting to me that normally wouldn't even be an issue, like my phone ringing or something. We've got to be better for all this in the end. my first break up took years to go over and this one I was sure it would be the same. One thing help me was a book Journey from Abandonment to Healing I realized much of my grief was from other stuff not just the relationship ending. I am still hurting about the relationship but at least now it is in context and not all consuming.
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