xxSRMxx Posted August 26, 2009 Posted August 26, 2009 I feel I have turned a corner, Its been about 4 months now, not of complete NO contact but no more us. Though he is ALWAYS there in the back of my mind, I feel I am starting to get over the initial having to leave a room before u burst into tears phase. Don't get me wrong, sometimes when I come home from a night out, after a few glasses of wine i will have a cry but apart from that I'm kinda moving on. Me and my ex do not talk, I have made myself look like a desperate idiot but yno what, I dont care anymore! For anybody who feels like they are gonna ache forever, cry forever, feel like **** forever, u wont. I think its good when u have a hurtful break up to go out and meet new people. I dont know about any of u but Though i love my friends and they have been there for me I started feeling like they became fed up of me moping around and thought i should just get a grip though they never said this. also everywhere where i went with them, id usually see him!! A new restaurant opened in my city, I was lucky enough to land myself a new job there after we split, and have about 80 new people walk into my life! All from different walks of life, Most I like, some i cant stand, but the ones i do like kinda started to peice together the **** ups id made and start to make me feel better about myself. None of my workfriends are from the same area in our city as me and my ex, therefore they dont know him personally. They have made me laugh til i cry! Its been fun making a whole new group of friends and finding out about there weird/crazy/****ty exes and realising my situation isnt so bad after all. Im not feeling better either because ive started seeing somebody else either! Im single and NOT looking. My ex is now walking around with a barbie on his arm. and it hurt me like HELL to see them together last week but i left the bar, didnt send him any drunken angry texes (like i think he was half expecting from me) and just had a laugh with my girls. Best of all, when a song comes on the radio that reminds me of him, I know longer uncontrollably burst into tears. Itll be a long time before im over him, but I duno about u, I used to be able to literally FEEL my heart breaking. Thats stopped now, just like it will for u.
Darren09 Posted August 26, 2009 Posted August 26, 2009 thank you for giving me some hope. i cant drive past her house without looking its hard to imagine me not thinking about her and just getting on with things......... hope your right anyway.
Author xxSRMxx Posted August 27, 2009 Author Posted August 27, 2009 Funny how you say that darren, yesterday i drove past his house and totally forgot to look, was only when i got to the end i realised i was even on his road. :-)
Darren09 Posted August 27, 2009 Posted August 27, 2009 wow i seriously dont know how u managed that 1. teach me how lol
caramel c Posted August 27, 2009 Posted August 27, 2009 Funny how you say that darren, yesterday i drove past his house and totally forgot to look, was only when i got to the end i realised i was even on his road. :-) That is awesome. I can't wait to be on that level.
Author xxSRMxx Posted September 9, 2009 Author Posted September 9, 2009 Things just seem to be getting better and better right now, guys it got to the point where i thought there was something wrong with me and that id never turn that corner. Last week me and my friend were on facebook, some pics of him and barbie came up on facebook from a night out theyd had together etc, I remember TRYING to cry because I thought thats what i should do?! cus thats what id spent months doin? I should be crying now right?? Nothing could come out!! Im not saying ive reached the end and im 100% ok, but im certainly gonna get there. LS has helped me an awful lot! Stay fabulous people!!
Beeotch Posted September 9, 2009 Posted September 9, 2009 So very true.... I am a living testament to the power of time and NC (for the most part) as well. I finally have my life back....I still think of him but not in a way that pains me. I can think of him and his gf and not feel like I want to throw up and BEST yet...I can think of NOT being with him and finding someone new and be happy and excited about it Funnily it is now that I am caring less and less is when he has literally resurfaced and invited himself to hang out with me this past weekend when I had not seen him since MAY and he has a gf,....oh welll Thanks to NC and time, I did not do anything foolish. We hung out quite platonically (although I saw him looking at me and I could tell he wanted more by his actions and words) but I acted like we were just friends and nothing more. I feel GREAT like I have my power back and am in NO RUSH to get back into anything with him. Never thought I'd see this day but here it is.
soheartbroken Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 This is good stuff. If anyone else has a positive success story, please start a thread. I really need to read these!
EpicPanda Posted September 10, 2009 Posted September 10, 2009 you're awesome for posting this, i can't wait to be out of this depressed zone!
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