fabulous_chk Posted August 20, 2009 Posted August 20, 2009 and I'm doing absolutely fine! Had rebounds here and there, had bisexual experiences, fell in love, became unknowingly a third party to a relationship (he swore up and down he was single lol!) and dating men like crazy! Having a good time. I occasionally talk to my ex thru YIM or phone and sometimes it's an hour long, sometimes it's a short "what do I say now" conversation. It's amazing how distant we became, we find it hard to talk about things now whereas before we can talk about anything. We had the same curiousity about the absurd, the ridiculous, the dirty and the stupid things in life. Now we are walking on eggshells whenever we talk. I warned him that nothing about the past is up for conversation, but sometimes he cannot help himself and would say things about how we were. That's self-torture. I cannot change nor do I wish to revisit the past. Now we only talk about school, alcohol, and partying, and our dog Sparky. I now go through days without thinking of him...and I feel guilty! Like, shouldn't he be on my mind 24/7? After all, it was a four-year relationship. But time (+good friends + alcohol + partying +gym + school) does heal all wounds. haha. I would never have thought I'd be in this place....5 months ago I felt so lost. But now I feel emotionally stable (I cannot say anything about my mental health lol) and I am happy, happy, happy. =) So to all of you out there, don't lose hope!!! Don't stay home and think. Do! Do! Do!
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