It's been 8 months since my break up 4 months of N/C. This is where I'm at!

[contax]

What's up everyone? Background story = With girl for 5 years 4 months.

I leave her because she is hanging with this dude too much. 3 days later she is in a relationship with dude.

 

In this time the positives have been this:

- Quit cigarettes

- Went to New York

- Went to Europe

- almost completed a major project (will be done soon

- got promoted to a higher position at my job

with increased pay

- I have alot of photos with me and beautiful girls

just friends, but it's still really nice to have!

 

My ex emailed me up to last week - where I finally blocked her off the last of the sites...and everytime that happens in a sense hurts cause it's like...now it's finally dead. Boo hoo all over again, but for a shorter time.

 

She emailed me begging for me to contact her, but no way sorry honey bunny..uh uh. lol It's been 4 months n/c.

 

When I feel overwhelmed and down somtimes I think of the relationship and feel hurt. I have not cried to sleep in maybee a month, but came close once.

 

I'm going for the inside out approach. I am learning to be happy as a single. Not dependent on anything external for my happiness.

 

My goal is to think of her as least as possible, heal from this long term relationship, learn from the mistakes, move on and have fun!

 

I am proud of who I am. As I have never cheated on anyone of my girls - ever. I am in my late twenties, have maintained my integrity and like Tony the Tiger - I feel GGGgggrreeaaattt! lol.

 

I wanted to post every month since the break up to update, now I will do it every second month, and then stop comming here. I want to move on fully.

 

The one thing I learned the most here is - NEVER BREAK N/C!!!!

I have in the first months, and have seen others here do it, and the horror stories that followed.

 

Sometimes I make myself feel hurt when I read some things and comments here that I don't agree with. Everyone is different, and generally this place has helped with my healing, so thanks again!

[Beeotch]

Awwww that sounds excellent! Sounds like you're on the right track. Keep it up!

[contax]

Thanks! There are days when I feel down, and start thinking really negative.

 

However, I take walks, read and talk to my family.

 

I'm commited to healing as best as I can. I hope everyone else does as well.