onthebrinkofitall Posted August 17, 2009 Posted August 17, 2009 I'm fairly new here and if you've ready my story, you know my bipolar marriage is on the rocks. But today's a good day.. not sure why.. but I don't feel so hopeless [for now]. Our separation is strange because we're still living together right now but we'll be getting our own places in October. The separation is all I really think about and it makes daily life difficult. I try not to bring things up but I keep thinking, if I can just say the right thing and get through to him.. maybe this can all go away. Foolish thinking, I know.. but I've gotta have hope. I went shopping the day before yesterday [that's my therapy!] and saw an old vintage couch that I just fell in love with. My husband says I'm tacky because I like old 70's style furniture, houseware, etc. I like to think of myself as having vintage tastes. Well anyway, I saw this couch and it was only $35 [i only shop at thrift stores] and got kind of excited about being able to decorate MY way. Instead of coming home to all this modern stuff, I can come home to my comfy worn in things. I think that's kind of carrying me through the days.. for now. It might wear off once I get into my apartment and feel so alone.. but maybe I'll really be alright. Anyway, just wanted to share. Anyone else do things like this to help them feel better, even if it's only temporary?
silic0ntoad Posted August 17, 2009 Posted August 17, 2009 Hell yah. Getting piercings, tattoos, anything to alter my appearance in a small way- I do it after a break up. It helps remind me I still feel. It's healthy.
trueblue72ny Posted August 17, 2009 Posted August 17, 2009 well, right now going for rides on my motorcycle makes me feel better. i would go shopping if i had some more money!
Author onthebrinkofitall Posted August 18, 2009 Author Posted August 18, 2009 Right on! I used to be so into piercings but sadly, I took them all out. I don't even wanna count how many times I've had my lip pierced. And now that you mention it, now might be an ideal time to get it pierced again. I never do feel right without it.. and there won't be any kissing getting in the way of healing! Hooray for bod mod. Hell yah. Getting piercings, tattoos, anything to alter my appearance in a small way- I do it after a break up. It helps remind me I still feel. It's healthy.
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