bitteorca Posted August 16, 2009 Posted August 16, 2009 Hey, 7 weeks NC and I've just sent her a facebook message. 'Hi, how are you? hope you're ok xx'. I don't know why, I don't know where it came from. I feel instantly stupid. I don't know what I want to achieve by it. I feel like I've just sent her a message saying 'Hi, yeah its me. I'm still pining over you. And I'm still as weak as ever. You haven't contacted me, but I've contacted you. Exactly the opposite of what I said I would do. All the best, your loser ex, xx'. I suppose I sent it because of the OFF chance she is being stubborn by not contacting me and does actually want to hear from me. Our split was complicated, and I was mostly to blame, so maybe that has something to do with it as well. When I told her I wasn't going to contact her any more, she promised me she would tell me if she ever felt differently. But confusingly, she said that I should do the same. Which didn't make sense, because I have told her how I feel. I think maybe (tell me if I'm reading too much into this) that she thinks I wasnt truly in love with her, and that after time I would forget about her, and hence why she said I should contact her as well. I think that was another reason for the message. ahhh i dont know. I've taken a few steps backwards by that message I kind of hope she messages back and I don't reply, that way I can feel like I have regained some strength again. I've been doing good as well. I haven't been checking LS every 2 seconds, and I've even been out with a girl 4 times, but I don't know about that yet! I miss my ex so much though at least I didn't drunk dial her or anything, or text her etc. ah watever, I've broken NC, its all the same!
ryepatch Posted August 16, 2009 Posted August 16, 2009 yeah, i spent the last 2 weeks NC, and then wrote to her today. it's a really unrealistic plan, huh? if they love us (mine claims to, or did 6 weeks ago) why should it matter? why is what's romantic inside of a relationship (i'll always love you, no matter what, i can't live without you) suddenly pathetic? my wife and i have been happy ten years, suddenly she's on a "spirit quest" and apparently it's pathetic that i want to keep our family together. down with NC! it's so manipulative, does it ever really work with intelligent, insightful partners? why won't she at least talk to me? i have no idea whether she stays up at night thinking of me or not. i see a spoon that's she's used, i go crazy. i still live in the house, she ran away. i don't have a single thing that i own by myself. our whole life is in common. i don't see how she's surviving.
Bleed Internal Posted August 16, 2009 Posted August 16, 2009 yeah, i spent the last 2 weeks NC, and then wrote to her today. it's a really unrealistic plan, huh? if they love us (mine claims to, or did 6 weeks ago) why should it matter? why is what's romantic inside of a relationship (i'll always love you, no matter what, i can't live without you) suddenly pathetic? my wife and i have been happy ten years, suddenly she's on a "spirit quest" and apparently it's pathetic that i want to keep our family together. down with NC! it's so manipulative, does it ever really work with intelligent, insightful partners? why won't she at least talk to me? i have no idea whether she stays up at night thinking of me or not. i see a spoon that's she's used, i go crazy. i still live in the house, she ran away. i don't have a single thing that i own by myself. our whole life is in common. i don't see how she's surviving. In your case, she'll probably be back after she's had her share of extra-marital cock and then decides she wants to settle down again. Who knows what she's doing out there? Sad but true. I feel for you man.
Author bitteorca Posted August 16, 2009 Author Posted August 16, 2009 bit of a thread jack but never mind!
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