Feeling really weird

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partially due to the fact I haven't been out anywhere with anyone, and I'm not attracted to anyone in general. I feel slightly bored sometimes, but then when I make plans with friends who ask me out, I don't feel all that excited either.

 

Like tomorrow, I'm hanging out with A ( musician guy). He's talkative and very friendly, yet all I can think about is how boring it's going to be, going on a ferry ride and hanging out at the park. It's not a date, because we both made it clear we're just going to be friends. I made it especially clear to him earlier on we're better off as friends.

 

 

I don't like feeling like this. I attract all the wrong types of people. Maybe I'm just being picky, but I don't really feel like wasting my time on people who can't benefit me? Does that make me superficial and/or incredibly selfish?

 

I'm not trying to be anti- social, but everytime a guy asks me out, I'm thinking they have ulterior motives. They don't know me at all, so why are they being so friendly?

 

It's just easier to turn them down then wondering where all this going.

[MSUE]

maybe you are a lil depressed and all the things you used to enjoy now you don't? its a sign

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maybe you are a lil depressed and all the things you used to enjoy now you don't? its a sign

 

Yeah I think I'm a little depressed, but I'm a also a little annoyed by people trying to be my friends. Whether they ask me out or not, I really hate them for trying to flatter me with useless drivel. I can't help but think how manipulative they are.

[Hkizzle]

Sounds like me from time to time. From your posts I can tell you're very analytical. There's a tendency for analytical people of being too logical and to see the bad side of human beings and what they truly are like. It's a pretty sad skill to have, and I guess ignorance is bliss.

 

Best to switch this off, have a few drinks and just have fun.