She cheated on me and I didnt see it coming

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OK so I've been going out with this girl for about 6 months maybe a little bit more but we've had a rocky relationship from the beginning i used to lie about little things like i couldn't hang out a preticular night because i wanted to be alone so i lied and would say im staying home or something..about this time she got a car...she would basically let me use her car whenever i wanted..over a small amount of time she became ever so slightly more controlling (dealable) and soon she found out about lies that i made to her like me having a bank acount with a small sum of money..that i never had...also once when she was sick i went to a party...so then it happened......i crashed her car...and..because we freaked out about insurance she took the blame for the crash...and got like 3 tickets and is about to lose her liscense ...i got away without problems but...it was never the same after that i was a schoufur with a (boyfriend) title...i was basically just giving her ride whereever she wanted to go ...then all the sudden we got into an arguement about sex and i told her she only wanted to have sex when she wanted sex...never the other way around ..so we had stopped having sex and the last month we've been in and out of arguements and almost on que she would bring up the crash and put it in my face..almost on instinct...i couldnt hang out with my friends cuz she couldnt trust me enough...then we got into and arguement about it and she said alright just do whatever you want...2 days ago she told me she was gonna hang out with her friend...as i was goin to hang with a friend as well...i txted her and asked her what she was doing...she said she was getting a bottle of liquor and goin back to a party..and i was like you never told me this ..she txtd back "oh my bad lol well i am"..i said aiite hit me up later...next day she says shes might needa ride after shes done kickin it with her friends..i picked her up with her friends at like 4am dropped her friends off then.....she said "i have somthing to tell you" i said...what did you do...she replied i dont wanna say but its bad...real bad...i said ....did you cheat on me ..silence..............i told her its over i dont ever want to talk to her and dont kall me for rides anymore...she said she was sorry...and i left.....i dont know this all happened like 6 hours ago...and it sucks cuz i never thought she would have cheated on me...she never did it to anyone else.....its sucks you know ....when you love somone just think your going through a hard time...then ...this.....she was my first genuine love too....but its over now....im slightly down....it hurts...i really didnt see it coming