DustySaltus Posted August 13, 2009 Posted August 13, 2009 NC was broken and I regretted it because I thought I was getting better. I sent her a "final" email to try and look at things from my perspective, here it is: [sIZE=2]Imagine you had moved to America, gotten citizenship and asked me to marry you. You were the happiest girl in the world but I still felt that you hadn't given enough to me, so I decided to check your emails on a regular basis to comfort my trust issues. I see emails to your friends saying how much of a tough time you are having, your thinking about coming back, talking about how I could be lazy sometimes and keeping contact with your old job. Instead of saying something to you right then and there about what is going through your mind, I decide to not talk about it and keep checking your emails to see what else is going on. After all, maybe you were not really serious about being here in the first place. But I wouldn't talk about it with you because that would be the right thing to do. I wouldn't even admit to checking your emails until I really knew that you were doing things that would make me feel like I was right to check them. And then I see things that could've been a mistake but instead of talking about it, because after all we are engaged......I just come home and kick you right out. And then when you think that maybe we can have a conversation and get past this......I tell you that I will call your contacts and dream job back home and "let them know what kind of person you really are". Not only did you get kicked out, but you also got a nice gift to think about on the plane for the next 12 hours. But even after all of that you still wanted to work things out. But we couldn't because I was already dating someone else and I had no idea where the ring was anymore. I sent you emails telling you how you didn't try hard enough but at the same time wish you the best of luck on your future. My love for you was Unconditional. Sure, I said some things that would piss you off but people who are in serious relationships find a way to get passed it. Every couple has said something bad about their partner, EVERYONE at some point. That's when you see whether or not the bond was strong, in those times. Yes, I messed up but so did you. I waited with open arms, while you waited with closed fists. I doesn't matter anymore though. I loved you so much and very well could've been left with nothing. But my love was unconditional, you didn't trust me for over a year but still said yes to me...it was a bigger issue than just me and you admitted to it. Something always had to be wrong and when something finally did go wrong, it was a relief because for once it wasn't something that you created, but it's something we both could've fixed. [/sIZE] Now, a few days later I get an email back saying that she can't say what would or won't happen between us, but she is willing to try and work things out. Ain't this a bitch? What the hell am I supposed to do now?
utterer of lies Posted August 13, 2009 Posted August 13, 2009 Now, a few days later I get an email back saying that she can't say what would or won't happen between us, but she is willing to try and work things out. Ain't this a bitch? What the hell am I supposed to do now? Say 'No'. Obviously.
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