sacg Posted August 12, 2009 Posted August 12, 2009 Guys and gal, I really don’t know how to start this or how I can unashamedly wait for the cascade of ”I told you so’s” from you guys. I’ve really messed up, and messed up bad. I’m embarrassed TBH. Track back for my story, but I’ve been on and off here for over a year, but more embarrassing, I’ve been on with my ex for all that time. She came back, she left, she came back she left, 3 times in total!! Lied every time and went back to that drugged up loser she left me for originally. Oh yeah, she’s sorry, runs away and hides about it, says she’s messed up, not worth it etc, etc. But it don’t help a ****. Folks, I m in bits, I am destroyed. I can’t describe that pain, weird, I’m not crying, but god this hurts. My mind feels frazzled, my heart is torn, my life has just hit the poxy brakes again, and I let it. Sad thing is, I still feel no anger, no real resentment, just disbelief. I’m so scared I can’t let this woman go. Reason for my post really, I know you’ll all be saying, “What?? Man up, etc, but it’s so hard. I truly feel a little sorry for her for having such a ***ed up life….Agghhh, I hate putting her above me.’ I think I’m a sucker for pain with her, and I have no idea why. I’m not weak, but with this I’m pathetic. I defend her to everyone, who I will admit is getting fed up. How can someone that once loved you so much treat you and lie this way? Do not be the fall back guy, do not hold onto anything unless they are most definitely giving it out sincerely. Don’t believe most of what they say to alleviate their guilt, and most of all, my GOD I wish someone banged this into me, leave them alone, go NC and ***in avoid them like the plague. Unless they come to you, let them go. I managed all of 2 weeks for one reason and another, and im in a bad place right now. Mark my words, you don’t…and you will pay. Maybe this should be in second chances too!!!
Bleed Internal Posted August 12, 2009 Posted August 12, 2009 Never take a girl back after she's been with another man. Stop being weak.
Author sacg Posted August 12, 2009 Author Posted August 12, 2009 Bit simplistic?? Is that non recoverable then, under any circumstances? Explain.
Bleed Internal Posted August 13, 2009 Posted August 13, 2009 Bit simplistic?? Is that non recoverable then, under any circumstances? Explain. That simple. When your girl has been with another man, she's no longer your girl. It can be hard. It can be heartbreaking. But you need to move on.
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