Oh No.....

[Soul Bear]

Sorry guys, I should have updated this earlier....

I honestly think after today I am really getting over her....something happened when she replied...i dont know...just a vibe I got and I didnt like it....I dont feel like im fighting NC anymore, I actually dont really care all that much anymore.

I dont feel stupid and I dont feel angry.

 

The girl I loved is long gone, she doesnt exist anymore....

 

Its all gravey

[Soul Bear]

Another funny thing.

I spoke to a mutual friend a few days ago, they asked me to move back to Scotland to move in with them, I said I would think about it, but I didnt want to bump into the ex or damage their relationship with her.

 

They said she has changed, they never see her, she acts like she doesnt even care about hurting me so bad and they would love to have me with them.

 

I told her today (the friend) about me breaking NC, and I actually realised I DONT WANT HER BACK!! She seemed pretty excited and told me she has been waiting for me to say that. She told me 'why would you want her back after she has changed so much and doesnt even care about hurting you?'

 

So, for me, I think breaking NC has really helped ME to let go that little bit more and I feel in a place of acceptence for the first time in ages. I went a bit mental for a few hours, but Im all good now!

 

Just thought I would share that with you...Im sure i will have one or 2 contradicting posts in the future.......

[NopeNah]

Thats what it took for me in a sense. My ex came back for a little over a week and during that time I realized that I really didn't like her that much anyways. For me it was the blow to my ego the way she left. now that she's "gone" and i've started dating other GREAT girls my ex doesnt matter quite so much. I still talk to her but, am taking it VERY,VERY slow at this point. To be honest I could do without talking to her ever again and be perfectly content!