smookie Posted August 9, 2009 Posted August 9, 2009 Damn I am mad at myself... I contacted him after going 7 days with no contact... U know I have to start over again however the tummy does not feel to good now.. His reply was asking me to do something for him then ending it with saying sorry for the inconveince .... in all these years he has never said anything like that .... weird.
hoping2heal Posted August 9, 2009 Posted August 9, 2009 So what is next? You planning to do what he asked of you?
smookie Posted August 9, 2009 Posted August 9, 2009 Oh I am not doing anything... He will not ask me. I am just upset that I did it and had to let it out. It is hard but being with him is unhealthy to every extent of the word.
hoping2heal Posted August 9, 2009 Posted August 9, 2009 I'm confused... he won't ask you? I thought he did ask you? Just trying to understand. Also, if you don't mind sharing what was it he asked you to do? I'm certainly not advocating a reconcile, but why do you think being with him was unhealthy? Just trying to understand the situation a little more clearly
smookie Posted August 9, 2009 Posted August 9, 2009 Sorry about that ... he asked me to post things on the internet for him (kijiji) he has no clue how to do it so sometimes I do this for him. I told him I reposted his ad's and his reply was to change things in the ad and then he said sorry for the inconvenice ... It was weird for him to even think to say sorry... We were together for a long time (seven years), As my son said to me that he is self centered and everything has to be his way or no way. We always fought about everything because he made it seem that I owed him things (I do not see how) but he just did. I started to feel that I was nothing but a booty call and thats it. I had to argue for him to change a light bulb (I have fear of changing them because on exploded in my face) he was a lazt slob that did not care about anything or anyone but himself.
hoping2heal Posted August 9, 2009 Posted August 9, 2009 Oh Okay, yeah yikes. Sounds very unhealthy, and must of been miserable for you both. I'm glad you recognize it isn't the right place for you, even if it hurts. So now are you back to NC?
smookie Posted August 9, 2009 Posted August 9, 2009 i am back NC ... even though it is the right thing to do it bothers me that I am still feeling anything for him .... He shows as much now as he did then ... I see it and i feel it wow what a messed up feeling ...
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