Author BW007 Posted August 9, 2009 Author Posted August 9, 2009 The truth is I am truly heartbroken that I was not who she chose to stay with. I have to find some way to really move on from her. This bull**** should do it. This sucks. What a waste.
Author BW007 Posted August 9, 2009 Author Posted August 9, 2009 She doesn't deserve your time or emotional energy! :mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad:
Author BW007 Posted August 10, 2009 Author Posted August 10, 2009 Ok, Do I need a shrink??? I know in my mind that my relationship went very bad and is over forever and cannot ever come back to the place where it was good. Kaput.. dead... Over. She is screwing someone else, is pregnant, and I will never have her in my life again. so far so crappy. So why the hell can't my heart catch up with this program. This isn't about competitiveness or envy or any of that... I am not trying to whine about this. Much of the end of the relationship was some unforgivable mean hearted crap from her. I have every reason to absolutely despise my ex. The truth: I still care for her. I think recent developments ripped the scab off of the left ventricle of my broken heart that I thought was healing. Is this just completely twisted? I hate this. Is this because of new info?? I am not healing from this like a normal person. Do I need a shrink or can this forum help me get it back together? This is not a question of logic... I know the right and wrong of this but my heart is not catching up. It's like my heart is stubborn about love once it loves someone. I think I may love her til the last breath I take, even though we will never be together again. I want room in my heart for someone who feels the same back in my direction. What is wrong with me?
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