Els Posted August 6, 2009 Posted August 6, 2009 My guy and I are both EXTREMELY frustrated. Even though we're in an LDR, why can't things be as simple as 'We'll meet during summer hols'??? Noooo. We planned to meet up during our hols at the end of the year. Catch: Both our courses require us to do internship at hospitals during our holidays. At least he gets to choose where he goes. I don't. Okay, so he'll come to me. BUT my university admin won't inform me of my location til a few months later. And he needs to make his applications now! I feel it's just crazy, the hoops that we both have to jump through just to make it POSSIBLE for us to meet up. I'm out of my mind with frustration and panic right now ever since I heard the news from my admin. I just cannot BEAR the thought that he would finally be able to spend 2 months here (the longest ever since he left) and I MAY NOT BE AROUND. Doesn't help that he's equally frustrated and his way of dealing with it is retreating into his shell. I could possibly appeal to my university if I get assigned to an internship far away. But what reason can I give them?? 'My bf is coming back so I wanna stay here with him'?! I thought this sort of **** is stuff that husbands and wives with roaring careers should have to put up with. Not students like us who've not even been together for 2 years yet. I'm so exhausted, and so is he, although he isn't saying anything about giving up. We KNOW what we have is so very special, it's just that the external circumstances keep screwing us again. And again. And again.
Bayern Posted August 6, 2009 Posted August 6, 2009 That really is a bad situation. There is no advice I really have, but I can wish you the best. Good luck!
4givrnt4gtr Posted August 7, 2009 Posted August 7, 2009 How far are you guys from each other??? Can you do a last minute summer visit?? When are you guys gonna be reunited for good? I can see how frustrating this is, but if its that special, its worth it. Dont throw something good out the window because of frustration or fear. Trust me you'll kick ur own butt for it later.
Author Els Posted August 7, 2009 Author Posted August 7, 2009 We could probably squeeze a week or two out even if it doesn't work out... but omg we were supposed to have two months! I'd been looking forward to these two months for over a year. There's no way we can squeeze out more without failing our courses. We'll hopefully be reunited in 1.5 yrs' time -- which is another matter full of uncertainty and struggle. God, the panic just grips my heart like an iron fist when I think deeply about it. I'm so very angry, and so very terrified. Angry because I just hate how things that matter so much to me, like where I'll be posted to for internship, will be determined by the roll of a dice and fate. Terrified because I just know that if this fails I WILL blame myself because I did not have the hindsight to do this or that, because I was not resourceful enough or did not think hard enough to conceive a possible solution. I will already be getting him to apply prematurely to the other three out-of-state hospitals that are in the list even though I do not know where I'll be going (and he'll have to turn down those which I don't get, a nasty thing to do, but there's no other choice). BUT even that won't cover all ground. This list is my senior's list; they'll probably add more hospitals to ours because there's more students in my year. And they won't tell us which til OUR list is out which is TOO LATE!!! At the moment I'm seriously considering just bribing my programme coordinator to reveal those other hospitals to me or to put me in a favourable one. Maybe I can pull off some sob story about my mom suffering from cancer and me wanting to stay here? Okay, I was kidding. No, actually, I was only half-kidding. Gah. I hate feeling desperate. I hate how EVERYTHING we try to do, even simple things like arranging a visit, have to be such a struggle. Sometimes I really wonder how some girls whom I know in real life can be all depressed and emotional over things like how their bf bought them the WRONG FREAKING BRAND OF CLOTHING AS A PRESENT. I feel like strangling those girls.
Bayern Posted August 7, 2009 Posted August 7, 2009 At the moment I'm seriously considering just bribing my programme coordinator to reveal those other hospitals to me or to put me in a favourable one. Maybe I can pull off some sob story about my mom suffering from cancer and me wanting to stay here? Okay, I was kidding. No, actually, I was only half-kidding. Maybe don't go this far, but you could sit your program coordinator down and tell him exactly what is happening. However unprofessional it may be, sometimes you have to suck it up. Pride is nothing when it comes to matters of the heart.
Katherineos123 Posted August 7, 2009 Posted August 7, 2009 Elswyth, I cant even IMAGINE what you guys are going through/have already been through/are going to go through.... And here I am bitching about a matter of months, and I get to still see him every few weeks.... You have really helped me to keep things in perspective. You two obviously love each other VERRRRYYYY much and are extremely committed to each other to have made it this far... Soon enough you will be together for good, and it will all be worth it. You guys are an inspiration! But as far as the situation at hand.... Im not quite sure I follow. So, you have a clinical to do at a hospital... and you may or may not be assinged to a hospital that is far away... Where do they expect you to live if they assign you to a hospital that is far away from your home? Do they provide you with housing/dormatories? Couldnt he just stay with you there?
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