scared to go home-cuz she wont be there when i get off the plane

[homebound]

Im in the Army. I've been Iraq for 9 months and im going home for good in 2 weeks. And to be honest...im scared ****less to get off that plane. To not call her so she can pick me up, or surprise her at her house with roses. I dont know what to do about it. I've never gone this long without talking to her. And now she has a new boyfriend. We were together for 4 years. And the thought of living without her makes me sick to my stomach. When she told me that they were together my heart almost jumped out of my chest.

 

And to make things worse, I was going to propose to her..i even got the ring halfway paid off.

 

now what?

[Thomas X Forever]

What the ****? **** this girl. You are seriously a hero. How she could ever have the audacity to leave someone risking their lives for HER (and everyone elses) freedom, is disgusting.

 

This post is NOT sarcasm.

 

Your service to this country is appreciated and you're a hero. If you need someone to talk to when you get back, I'd be happy to. You aren't alone. And SERIOUSLY, thank you. Any girl would be truly lucky to have someone as brave, but clearly also as caring, as you. You're one in a million. Screw this girl

[homebound]

Chill out man. I mean thank you but I really dont deserve it. I have friends that are back home in hospitals. Those are the real heros. But that not my point.

 

There's more to it. Im the ******* here. I really dont deserve her. And thats whats killing me. See its my fault she doesnt want me. I really hurt her and i really didnt mean to. I never wanted to ruin us. I love her so much and im to blame for the break up. She was always there for me until now.

 

I just cant get over her. She was perfect. And now shes moved on.

[Thomas X Forever]

What exactly happened that caused her to leave? What did you do?

 

 

 

And have you TRIED to reconcile?

 

 

Based on your two posts, however, it sounds as if you have serious self esteem issues. You have to work on this. No girl is perfect. You've put her too high.

[soheartbroken]

Homebound, I know how you feel. I also can't stand the thought of going home to an empty house. I'm staying with a friend for the next couple of weeks, but sooner or later, I will have to go home alone. And I'm terrified. Everything reminds me of her, and I'm sick to my stomach.

 

Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone.

[homebound]

a bunch of girls from my old high school sent me picture on my phone(bikinis, topless flashes etc.) and my friends and i thought it was funny. So for some idiotic reason i saved the pictures to my email so i could take the with me to Iraq. Sort of a "what we're fighting for back home" kinda thing.

 

Well my ex (before she was my ex) sneaks onto my email somehow and sees everything. And she was completely heartbroken over it. But she had it all wrong. I wasnt turned on or trying to have sex or hook up with these other girls. I just thought it was funny. And to top it all off the girls would write "im going to miss you or I love ya" with the pictures.

 

It was immature and childish of me. It was the biggest mistake of my life.

 

 

and yea we did hook up while i was on Leave. And she acted like it never happened. But now she has someone else

I mean WTF!! how can you have sex with some one and then go off and find some one else just like that?!

[homebound]

thanx man. i appreciate it. its going to be hard adjusting to life without her. We were supposed to move in together when i got home. We even bought a king sized mattress while i was home on leave. I dont even want to see that bed now

[Thomas X Forever]

You have every right to be pissed regarding how she basically used you.

 

As for what you did. Sure, you were wrong. But she should have trusted you to understand what you were doing once you explained it. Or she should of at least given you another chance, unless these emails contained conversations back and forth regarding inappropriate things.

 

You may have initially been wrong, yes. But in the end, it's her who's wrong. You're army trained, btw, so you should probably beat the hell out of her new bf.

[carhill]

Well OP, if you want to hear a positive story, there was a man who served his country during a very difficult time in world history, the 1940's. While he was in Italy fighting the Germans, his wife back home took up with another man and left him, wrote him a dear John letter and took their two daughters with her. As you shared, he was heartbroken when he returned 3 years later. No matter, he dutifully wrote his daughters and sent child support for many years. Now, the good news.... He met a lovely lady here in California, fell in love, got married, and six years later had that cute little boy you see on the tricycle.

 

He was my father.

 

Thank you for putting yourself in harms way to protect and serve our country. When we put my father in the ground, the young corpsmen who folded the flag and gave it to my mom shed tears as taps was played. Another soldier and gentleman gone.

 

Make your life matter. What's done is done. Go forward. Best wishes

[homebound]

One of the girls was my best friend, she's the one that got us together in the first place. She has 2 kids now. And she's kinda the reason that she wont take me. We Did have an inappropriate conversation. But its just how we talk u know? Even before i met this girl, my best friend and i would always talk dirty to eachother(as a joke). I mean i dont expect my ex to understand this but its the truth. And im ashamed of it.

 

And yeah its gonna be hard going home and not beating that guys face in. But I know that it would just be one more immature thing to throw on her list of stupid things i've done....Plus i would get thrown in jail no questions asked. I know i would take it to far....but damn it would make me feel better haha

[homebound]

Thank you very much sir. You really helped me.

[Thomas X Forever]

Lol some cops look the other way for people who served in the army

 

 

As for carhill, that story was amazing.

 

Ok, back to the OP. You've explained this all and she wouldn't give you another chance? Did your best friend/her best friend talk to her and back your story up?

[homebound]

she did give me another chance but she wasnt the same. She was suspicious of everything i did or said. She eventually said that she couldnt take it anymore. She said that she was tired of being alone and that she could never forgive me for what i had done.

 

My best friend did talk to her. But she said that she was already mad before the conversation started. It was my idea that they talk in the first place, I thought it would help. My ex was hostile and angry with my best friend. She told her that the pictures and the texting was all inappropriate and that she had no right sending those pictures. Well my best friend said the stupidest thing that could be said. She said that it wasnt a big deal and that she should let it go. she told her that the way we talked to eachother shouldnt be taken seriously

 

So it made things worse for us.