bluejeanbebe Posted August 3, 2009 Posted August 3, 2009 I have a WHOLE LOT of time of my hands, so I spend most of it just thinking about things. I'm in my late 20's, so I'm still in that transitional what do I want to do? who do I want to be? where do I want to be? kind of place. Of course, just ended a 3-yr relationship, so I'm still reeling from that. I had company over this past weekend, a husband/wife/daughter, where I've known the husband-wife for many many years. I went to college with the husband and we've been in the same field. The wife got me thinking about alot of things I've been thinking already. I have a career and always have had success with getting good jobs, though the irony of it is, I could care less about having a successful career. If you were to look at me just from the outside, great job, nice house, nice car, no husband, no kids; you might assume that I was just a dedicated career-woman with no interest in a family. But if you really knew me, you would know it would be the farthest from the truth. I want nothing more than to have a happy marriage, raise a family, take care of a nice home. But it seems the only luck I have is in a career. I have no idea what to do about it. The wife-friend that visited kept commenting on what nice things I have, what a nice house, car, things, etc. But it seems that's all I have- nice things. I don't want to seem ungrateful- but it's all very empty and lonely when it's all you have. She is the exact opposite of me- she went to college with us too, but she hasn't had the same success in a career, they got married right out of college, they have a daughter, they have a bit of an older home that they have tirelessly worked on and they have an older van. But she has a husband that has loved her since they were kids, a adorable/smart daughter, large family and friends, etc. With her comments, I wonder if she was wishing for my life... if she only knew I was wishing for hers. The whole grass is greener thing...
caramel c Posted August 3, 2009 Posted August 3, 2009 I know it can be difficult not to be envious of what others have, some times the feeling just comes naturally. What you've got to do is try to find ways to overcome that feeling when you get it. The truth is, nobody else's life can really be compared to yours in a fair way anyway. There are way too many variables. What you should concentrate on is doing the best you can with what you have. The feeling that what you have and what you've done are not enough, the emptiness of it all can be unbearable at times. I have one idea for you. Have you ever thought of doing something more than what you are doing? Perhaps give more of your time and money to a cause that will not produce any sort of profit (charity or volunteer work of any kind)? That may bring a new sense of purpose in your life that it seems like you are longing for.
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